I've already found the culprit('s) on the hoohoohaahaa tagboard.
OMGGGGGGGG. you guys really suck! go get ducks and suck okay. quack quack quack. or better still get some dildos!!
i chose not to reveal your identities cos i know, my mouth very the laser, later the whole world will know, especially if i blog it in my very own blog. sooo.. i guess you people are just pure lucky laa okay.
nontheless, bee.. start updating can? i love you baby! muahhhhhhhhhhhhh!
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, December 11, 2006 @ 12.16 a.m.
haha. i know it's been so so long since i last updated. probably due to the fact that my laptop is down and i have to depend on the slow comp next door, or use the computer at the transit area whenever when im workin. or, for this case, im using Sofia's laptop. hehe.
quick random updates. my 1st year anniversary with Sofia is less than a week away. my 2nd TP is on the 26th October. hopefully can make through this one. and im juggling 2 jobs right now. a barista at CoffeeBean and at Starbucks.
let's just say Starbucks has a better work environment. the people down there are friendly, welcoming. very outgoing. and the management is superb, though abit strict. but career wise, if you're looking on a long term case, Starbucks provides way way way much better working oppurtunities and development for your career. their welfare is good. not only certain stores, but district also. it's amazing that people from different stores can click so well, whereas from CoffeeBean, damn, there's so much hatred. it sickens me to know that managers from CoffeeBean are stealing money and not getting caught. work down there is abit slack but the management only cares about profit, profit, and profit. no pride in quality customer service.
okay. let's just say im having a good time working at Starbucks because i've been making lots of good impressions by participating in the mooncake festival, attending meetings, not late for work, being able to convince customers to buy a boxset of mooncakes which cost $35, and a bag of coffee beans. look on the retailing side, not bad for a guy like me. heh. and i've been able to handle slams and work accordingly to meet their standards. im on my way to become one of Starbucks Coffee Master and a learning coach, in months to come. damn, suddenly im so patriotic about work. it feels good. really.
so at least there's something that im doing right now with pride. till then, selamat berbuka puasa.
take pride in doing everything. even in loving someone.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, September 25, 2006 @ 06:43 p.m.
purrr like a cat
I seriously think i look like a cat and he looks like him. muahaha.
It has been like eons since he last or rather i last post a pic, so there you go a new pic taken on August 5th. I seriously think i look like a cattt. realllllllyyy. muahahah. whatever sofia.
I love my boyfriend, and thats all that matters.
The Outsider Steps In On Sunday, August 6, 2006 @ 04:02 a.m.
Happy Tenth to us Baby And soo, look at us now. Living a life with full of love and surprises.
I love you baby, with all my heart and soul.
Happy tenth to us baby, lovelove. =)
-Sofia
The Outsider Steps In On Tuesday, August 1, 2006 @ 01:58 p.m.
If you believe in God, then you will believe in yourself As a kind soul, I am willing to update this fella's blog for the sake of updating. Im doing you a favour mister. Heh, kidding. Ra ra alakazam.. what a surprise. The gf is doing the greatest pleasure to accomadate this 'dead' blog with her latest updates.
So far, school has been good. If you realised, i have put my blog on hiatus due to uninspirational lack of ideas on what to talk about daily since i've been pretty busy with crazy tests, too hot to handle projs and more school stuffs. I'd rather crack my brains to think on how to spend my time with the loved ones, rather on to potraying what i am or how i am doing right now on the bloggingworld. I wouldnt wanna go to the extent of elaborating alot on school, cos it'll bore you readers to death.. i know.
Seth has been pretty busy with his extra part time acting thingy, which i think his cb job pays more than what he does for acting. BUT, if it satisfies him to act, than so be it.I dont see the reason why i should stop him from doing so. It's the same thing as,if a girl wants to shop, let her do her thing or else, she will be sarcastic and fight with you over a silly matter. In which this case, let me assure you, the girl will win. Thats where the saying goes "Dont ever let the ladies have your credit cards". haha. Okay, this story is sooo irrelevant to my topic.
Anyways,back to his acting story. Recently, he has been very clumsy and sleepy headed. In other words very kental and slenger. I shall not elaborate on this further,cos it will be too lengthy and it will only make me yawn more.
The reason for me to type on this entry is because... i miss blogging!! I'll be back in action on my very own blog, in perhaps.. a couple of weeks or months or so.. haha. But on the contrary, i dont feel like blogging in, into too in depth about my life. It will only make people kepo-kepo to invade your privacy, worst still plagiarism. Omg, such people still do exist in this world.
Looking on the bright side, Seth will be undergoing his car prac tp soon. Im soo excited! Like very very very soo excited! Go rounding rounding.. wahhh.. syioook. No pressure in passing it though boyfriend. But i know he can do it.. he's the man made of steel! Of cos he can surpasses the challenge.
Im sleepy now laaaa.. Seth,no matter what, i am very proud of you for you've been supporting yourself with your very own hardwork and effort. And i'll be there to support you fully, be it spiritually, economically, mentally,physically or whatever lly laa. I know it's never easy, and i know you will never give up, because you know there's always someone watching over you.Plus my mom and me if you've never included that, oh and your aunt too.
I love you baby..wholeheartedly.
The Outsider Steps In On Thursday, July 27, 2006 @ 12:50 a.m.
extra let me tell you something.
i can at least officially declare myself as an actor now. well, not a professional one, and not even a part time one. but an extra one. well, an extra has to act anyway.
you see, i was part of the extra cast who had to act for this channel 5 show, and let me tell you, i had a great fun time doing it. it was a worthy experience. it has been something that i've always wanted to do. maybe this could be a kick start in what seems to be a promising career. ohh please! haha.
nevermind the long hours, but my trip to mediacorp was all worthwhile. met all sorts of people, and celebrities, not to forget. but Fiona Xie tops the list. she smiled and even waved at me. sounds corny but yeah, it happened! haha. my girlfriend must be cursing me upon reading this man. heh.
well, just keep tuning to channel 5, and if you happened to be one of those lucky ones to see me on screen, kudos to you. stay tune.
i surrender upon your flying kisses..
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Friday, July 21, 2006 @ 01:10 a.m.
Superman Returns Superman really did return with a bang. a movie worth watching. many many times. and Brandon Routh really did his homework to portray Superman just like how all people expected him to do so. to be a successor of the ever-so-famous Superman, the late Christopher Reeves, is a challenge. by playing that character, you're holding a big responsibility. a huge task upon you is waiting. or maybe even tasks. the heavy expectations. people will always refer you as Superman, no matter what, under all circumstances.
not only is Superman the American icon, but he is fast becoming a world icon. not only kids look up to him, but also adults. young adults like me, that is. =) and being a Superman, is really tiring.
imagine having to do close to 60 interviews in a day, with a huge amount of repetitive questions. having to take numerous flights for press conferences and photoshoots. having to sign thousands, or maybe even millions of autographs within a short space of time. and there will be lots of photo taking with the public. cameras flashing here and there. otherwise, the public would deem you as arrogant.
heh. being a Superman freak myself, i can't help but to stare in awe on how the movie was produced. pure magical. i was purely on full concentration mode the whole time i was watching the movie. i thought i might have irritate my girlfriend at some point of time. because she asked me questions that went unanswered. hehe. well, what can i say? a good movie with awesome visual effects, tremendous sound system, excellent artistes, a beautiful Lois Lane, and a superb Superman. i need not say more. go check out yourself if you want some awe moments to look for.
and obviously i can't wait for the next Superman movie. the continuation. damn. its in 2-3 years time. well, there's always Smallville. heh.
okay im almost done here. well, if you wanna catch my Superman madness, there's always pictures on my Sofiababy's blog. cool pics i tell you. because the shirt i was wearing on that day made it all look beautiful. shit. i am obssessed with Superman. heh. childhood memories. goodnight people. hush now, and sleep peacefully. because Superman is back! crap...
and and and.. i now have my very own Lois Lane! hah!
theres' a freedom in your arms, that carries me through.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, July 3, 2006 @ 02:10 a.m.
England are through. what say you? haha.
im updating just because Sofia asked me to. so yeah. here i am. again. actually right, i also don't know what to talk about. i see my very own Nicole Scherzinger every single day and i can never get enough of her. slacking sessions has always been with either Luke, or Fai, or with Luke and Fai. and and im glued to the television almost everyday, watching what else but football, football, football. World Cup.
anyways, i just wanna share a little something. i find it VERY IRRITATING when people on their music out loud via their handphones in public!!!! be it in the bus, coffeeshops or wherever laa. and those guilty ones are the usual suspects, mats with their never ending dancehall tracks or jiwang shits. and secondary school chinese boys who think that K-Pop or J-Pop or CinaPop top the charts in the Hollywood Billboards. its irritating okay. its either you plug in your bloody earphones or you don't on it at all. you don't flaunt your freaking tunes to the public. you don't have to. in the past, it used to be those mono and poly tones, but thanks to technologies, real music is the thing now.
so if you have a habit of doing it, here's an idea of what i think you should do. STOP IT!
okay im done. and and, i love my very own Nicole Scherzinger. no idea who is Nicole Scherzinger? Yahoo can help you. peace.
you're my world, my heart, my soul.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Thursday, June 22, 2006 @ 01:29 a.m.
LilliPuttPuttPutt We LilliPutted!
it's a mini indoor golf laaa.
read my blog for more. The owner of this blog is very lazy to update. You wanna know why? It's because of the
WORLD CUP SYNDROME.
-sofia
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, June 12, 2006 @ 11:09 p.m.
world cup 06 okay. so its been ages since i last updated my blog. my girlfriend has been the one blogging in through here. haha. well, what can i say. im becomin lazier each passing day.
everything is moving along just fine between me and that lovely princess of mine. car practicals are moving smoothly. just anticipating for my TP test. 11 August is the date. so yea, counting down the days.
holidays are here, and this year's summer holidays are gonna be filled with live world cup coverages and matches. so fast and another world cup are back on our tv screens. it feels so yesterday that the 2002 world cup had just ended. time flies.
England has got off to a flying start. well, not performance-wise, but results-wise. important thing is, 3points already in the bag.
okay laa. im almost done here. Nicole Scherzinger is soo hot hot hot! mixed bloods. no wonders.
okay, 29June is the date you all should watch out for. Superman Returns! okay im out!
how can i make this poetic when there's nothing more pathetic to be said..
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Sunday, June 11, 2006 @ 05:25 p.m.
PCD ON HIM, damn intimidating. i love pcd, but nicole is in my bitch list.
cos he STEAMED my boyfriend.
nicole is STEAM-ULATING. get it?
i gotta have curves like her laa...
does jogging & crunches work baby?
hah.
lovingly yours,
sofia
The Outsider Steps In On Friday, June 9, 2006 @ 04:43 p.m.
Happy Eighth! Happy Eighth Baby!
ilovemyfrozzybaby.
he's cool. he's smart. he's not only talented but multi talented. he's everything that youre not.
do you know that geeks and nerds can be transformed into a god-hot-damn-nerd? and they can also have god-hot-damn abs?
GOTTTTTT laaaaa.. who says dont have.
Back to the main point, just wanna wish you happy eight Seth, and i love you. I dont wanna be mushy mushy or else people will get disgusted.
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
okay, take care dork. i love you. ah hockkkkkkk ki na seng! haha.
MuahMuahMuahMuahMuahMuahMuahMuah
The Outsider Steps In On Thursday, June 1, 2006 @ 10:24 p.m.
shining down on me from heaven
My love,
I love you then, now and forever.
Always will be, forever.
Your one & only lover,
Sofia.
The Outsider Steps In On Thursday, May 18, 2006 @ 05:36 p.m.
it's 630 in the morning, and i just had my shower. and cereals for breakfast. this is like the 1st time im up this early in months! i tried to sleep, but i just couldn't. i was sleepy, but my mind just couldn't stop thinking.
you see, my house is empty since Thursday, and will be till Sunday. everyone is out to JB. it's very quiet and i feel so lethargic. and to make things worse, Sofia is in KL. with family of course. and im left here, all alone. i miss her so much. it's killing me. usually, she'll be the one who will accompany me throughout when my family's out to JB or something. and my friends are all working, and so, it's gonna be a very long weekend. a draggy one. i can't wait for her to return. come home soon baby!
it's like, im living all by myself. oh well, never mind. you see the thing is, im so used to the fact that i almost see my girlfriend every single day, and now that she's away for a short holiday, im struggling to cope with it. well, what can i say, she's my everything alright.
im running out of cash like a speed of a lightning. or even faster than that. my car practicals are almost done. and in order for it to be done, that's when the word 'money' comes in. i can't wait to get my license. hopefully, by end of july. i hope so.
seriously, i miss Sofia badly. and i tried to soothe that 'missing my girlfriend' sickness by watching Pussycat Dolls latest video, 'Buttons', over and over again. their front pussy, Nicole, just blew me away. okay wait. that sounds so, never mind. heh. anyhows, she is the perfect definition of the word, 'HOT!'. hot hot hot!
but no matter how many times i watch her flaunt her sexy dance moves and gorgeous ass shaking, i can't take my mind off Sofia. truth is, i miss her. to my eyes, she is the real hot stuff. mine. not yours. not theirs. but only mine. always and forever. like a normal healthy man, that Nicole thingy is just a fantasy.
i better try to get some sleep before the sun is up. take care everyone. and and and, i love you, Sofia.
good times last forever, i'll keep my heart with yours.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Saturday, May 13, 2006 @ 06:30 a.m.
rain. it really feels good to walk in the rain. your hair wet. your clothes drenched. your feet soaked with water. droplets of raindrop dropping on you non stop. the street lights. and then you set your mind on something and keep walking and walking and walking. and that's when deep thoughts really come in handy. and then your emo shits will get the better of you. and you will try to recall some of those memorable moments you see in dramas or movies, where the guy keeps walking down the road in the rain. both hands in side pockets, head down. for once, i really could feel it. feel what? i also don't know laa.
i soaked myself in the rain just now. walked my way home. it was great. walking alone in the rain. damn. but then it started to get really heavy and then lightnings kept flashing here and there, and so were the loud thunders. and so, they had me scared. haha. ball-less. and i started running. luckily for me, it only got heavy when i was only one bus stop away from my house.
speaking of this whole thing, it reminded me of the song Hands Down, by Dashboard Confessionals. watched a couple of their live clips and it really moved me on how the crowd will sing along, and i really mean sing along from the start, to the end. the lead singer didn't even have to sing the verses. he just sings the chorous. cool shit. i wanna be like that one day. okay stop.
One Tree Hill and Smallville fresh episodes await me. and The Oc, still downloading. can't wait. dramas take me far away from my hectic drama life. haha. bye.
i don't wanna be anything other than what i've been trying to be lately.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Saturday, May 6, 2006 @ 10:35 p.m.
rain. it really feels good to walk in the rain. your hair wet. your clothes drenched. your feet soaked with water. droplets of raindrop dropping on you non stop. the street lights. and then you set your mind on something and keep walking and walking and walking. and that's when deep thoughts really come in handy. and then your emo shits will get the better of you. and you will try to recall some of those memorable moments you see in dramas or movies, where the guy keeps walking down the road in the rain. both hands in side pockets, head down. for once, i really could feel it. feel what? i also don't know laa.
i soaked myself in the rain just now. walked my way home. it was great. walking alone in the rain. damn. but then it started to get really heavy and then lightnings kept flashing here and there, and so were the loud thunders. and so, they had me scared. haha. ball-less. and i started running. luckily for me, it got heavy when i was abt one bus stop away from my house.
speaking of this whole thing, it reminded me of the song Hands Down, by Dashboard Confessionals. watched a couple of their live clips and it really moved me on how the crowd will sing along, and i really mean sing along from the start, to the end. the lead singer didn't even have to sing the verses. he just sings the chorous. cool shit. i wanna be like that one day. okay stop.
One Tree Hill and Smallville fresh episodes await me. and The Oc, still downloading. can't wait. dramas take me far away from my hectic drama life. haha. bye.
i don't wanna be anything other than what i've been trying to be lately.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Saturday, May 6, 2006 @ 09:44 p.m.
The Outsider Steps In On @
rain. it really feels good to walk in the rain. your hair wet. your clothes drenched. your feet soaked with water. droplets of raindrop dropping on you non stop. the street lights. and then you set your mind on something and keep walking and walking and walking. and that's when deep thoughts really come in handy. and then your emo shits will get the better of you. and you will try to recall some of those memorable moments you see in dramas or movies, where the guy keeps walking down the road in the rain. both hands in side pockets, head down. for once, i really could feel it. feel what? i also don't know laa.
i soaked myself in the rain just now. walked my way home. it was great. walking alone in the rain. damn. but then it started to get really heavy and then lightnings kept flashing here and there, and so were the loud thunders. and so, they had me scared. haha. ball-less. and i started running. luckily for me, it got heavy when i was abt one bus stop away from my house.
speaking of this whole thing, it reminded me of the song Hands Down, by Dashboard Confessionals. watched a couple of their live clips and it really moved me on how the crowd will sing along, and i really mean sing along from the start, to the end. the lead singer didn't even have to sing the verses. he just sings the chorous. cool shit. i wanna be like that one day. okay stop.
One Tree Hill and Smallville fresh episodes await me. and The Oc, still downloading. can't wait. dramas take me far away from my hectic drama life. haha. bye.
i don't wanna be anything other than what i've been trying to be lately.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Saturday, May 6, 2006 @ 09:44 p.m.
Always You a belated 7th to you. me. us. and yet again, we've survived through the rocky times. you are my 7th heaven. and you will always be my forever heaven. and i've come to realise that i need you for the rest of my life. i'll be your 'Nathan', and you'll be my 'Haley'. i love you, SofiaBaby. Always, and Forever.
good times last forever, i'll keep my heart with yours.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Wednesday, May 3, 2006 @ 10:56 a.m.
have you ever wonder who would you have been if your real parents had not conceived you in the 1st place? and im pretty sure many have had this thought in their minds before. you wonder whose life you'd be in, or even wonder whether you even had a life to live for.
sometimes people think, why is there life. or what is the purpose of living this life. you were born because of a reason. you were brought into this life for a purpose. these are what professionals call, the naked facts. but what are the true facts? my answer to that is; you can never know until the day you die. because along the way, you might switch paths and your destiny might change.
some people think they have a bright future ahead. and they say, my future is secure. bullshit. your future is never secure until you yourself are living in that future. some people think their future is doomed, because of the wrong paths they choose in life. to those people who fall into that category, nothing is ever too late. your future will only come tomorrow. and you have today, to make things go your way.
people. i've met all kinds of people throughout my life. and i know i've yet to meet every kind that exists in this world. people can really amaze you. in a lot of ways. some are good hearted. some are evil. some are nice. some are nasty. and let me remind you that we're living in a sick sick world because of some sick sick people. no no, not sick physically. but sick in the brain.
back to the life i was talking about, i consider myself lucky. lucky because im able to use a laptop to blog in this entry. lucky because i just had a glass of plain water. lucky because my phone just beeped. lucky because im listening to cool tunes. lucky because the fan is blowing directly on me. lucky because the air con is working, though its leaking. lucky because i have eyes to see what im typing right now. lucky because i have a house to live in. obviously i won't forget to mention that im lucky because i have the most understanding girlfriend in the whole wide world, whom i know loves me dearly with all of her heart.
im sure many will feel the same like i do. but hey, life is never fair. do you know that some people out there live for days without food and water? some don't even know what an Ipod is. worse, some have living parents, but day and night, for days, for weeks, for months, for years, where are they? that poor child has to face all the shits he/she faces in life alone, without proper guidance from parents. knowing that he/she had the possibility of having that. so possible, but yet impossible. so if you just had a bad day, chill. yours might not be as bad because i can assure you, there are probably millions out there who had it worse.
people make mistakes because we are entitled to do so. that's why we are called humans. if we don't make mistakes, then humans we are not. im sure you people have done mistakes. i've had my fair share of mistakes too. do you know that every mistake you make, will make you a better person? provided, you learn from it. that's the wonder of mistakes. they are there, so that you can learn something out of it.
all of these above are just ponderings. i've been doing alot of thinking lately. and im not gonna let things or people around me bring me down. that easily. i believe i was born into this world for a purpose. and for a reason. and im gonna start searching for it, beginning from now.
tell me not to lie, tell me not to wait. tell me that you want the same things as me.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Sunday, April 23, 2006 @ 10:13 p.m.
late night me and Fai hit the club last night. MOS to be precise. we had a great time dancing. it was pure fun. i didn't know i can dance so well. hmm..
afterwhich, i slept over at his house after that. and i gotta admit i kinda miss the times i used to hang out at his place and we would just talk about anything under the sun, till the sun came up. that was what? during our O Level years and post O Level period. now, everyone seems to be busy with their life. we're becoming young adults, and to meet up once in a while, that is good and fortunate enough for me. so bro, thanks for listening me out. you're very much appreciated.
she's in school right now. well, just finished. whatever competition that she was cheering on, kinda pissed me off. i swear. because of that, i had to stay home and i've been on the bed for the past 4hours now. no offence to people out there, but i just hate her school. since last time la actually. i have my own reasons. bloody hell. we'll just wait til her school really starts.
somehow, my body's weak. i have no idea why. maybe because i was out the whole day yesterday with insufficient sleep. whatever. im hungry and it's irritating the living hell out of me. bye.
tell me it's the real thing, that keeps me hanging on
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Friday, April 21, 2006 @ 06:00 p.m.
im twenty now. time really flies. and without me really noticing, im no more a teenager already. twenty. the big 2 0. in between teenagehood and adulthood, if you wanna call it. and my oh my did i have a great 20th birthday last Saturday.
1st of all, a million thanks to those who wished me. there were few who really surprised me. lost contact ones especially. and those who wished me late, no fret. just to let you know that all of your wishes are very much appreciated. couldn't ask for more.
and i can't stop thanking my girlfriend for the effort she put in just to make sure i'd have a blast on my big 20. she blew me away. i was surprised actually when i woke up from my sleep, when she actually brought in the cake all the way into my room and sang me a birthday song. for those who know Sofia well enough, you do know how great her voice sounds. so yeah. melted.
the day out was fun too. though i swear i hate those neoprint machines. japanese language is sure an irritant. and on my big day, i was being the biggest loser ever. as clumsy as ever, i pretty much made myself looked like a fool. and all my girlfriend could do was to just laugh at my kentalan acts. i've always been a kental though. so yea, not much of a big deal. overall, i sure had fun. very much. and thanks to Khai for the HV Reg.
tomorrow's school. i don't wanna talk about it. i havent been to school for about 5 months now, and so, tomorrow, i'll feel weird, definitely. but no worries. i'll make it through the day. hopefully. RP sucks big time though. no offence.
and after school tomorrow, i've got my car practicals. everything's going fine. halfway through my lessons. another halfway to go through. hopefully i can get my license just in time before raya.
alright peeps. thanks for reading my entry. im twenty now and i need my 20hours of sleep daily! haha. bye laa.
your eyes, they shine like diamond when i stare deep into it.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, April 17, 2006 @ 12:16 a.m.
Happy Birthday My Baby
Happy 20th Birthday Baby!
I love you.
Love,Sofia.
The Outsider Steps In On Saturday, April 15, 2006 @ 12:30a.m.
food galore okay my girlfriend is fast asleep. and im wide awake. waiting for The OC to finish downloading. im deadbeat. cause the day i had with my girlfriend was filled with laughters and non stop eating. heh.
Secret Recipe's baked cheesecake was awesome. and then QiJi's Mee Siam was okay. and Mrs Field's muffin rocked my world. and then, the big dinner with my family, and of course, my dearest girlfriend. at Bedok Corner. the occasion being my abang sedare's birthday. ikan bakar. whoohoo. delicious. great time we had i must say. and i dare say my girlfriend loved all of it especially when meals are free and they are nice. haha!
okay my OC is done with downloading. im gonna watch it now, and then ima join my girlfriend in bed to sleep! wheeeee...~
in the still of the night, i held you near, by my side.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Sunday, April 9, 2006 @ 02:18 a.m.
If you think he's crazy, youre soo wrong. Im more crazier.
The punk'd was very surreal and real. I swear i could have punch his arms and squeeze his nipples sooo hard, when i saw him coming out of the toilet, without a bandage slung around his arms and shoulders. You were lucky dork, your aunt was there! If not, i would have hentam you habis-habis. *evil smile
Okay fine. I dont have the guts to punch his arms and squeeze his nipples so hard. Do you think im a nasty girlfriend? Eeeew. Soo not me. So you see, we went out. He got pissed off at this mama at 7-11 near plaza singapura area there. And he kept on cursin and swearin about that mama when we left that place at night. Well, the mama was at fault laa. In a way, i dont mind him cursing and all. Especially if that guy was being rude. BUT, that mama apologised anyway, so yeah.. i kept one eye close. Suka hati kau laa mama.
Im bloggin in for him, cos as you can see, he's pretty busy organising his 20 year old birthday partayy!haha. Kidding. False alarm. I have no idea, what plans he has on that day. And dont you fret mydorky one. I'll be back home by morning. I swearrrrr. Dont blame me. Blame TP for organising the camp 3 days straight, and it collides with Good Friday! I think i talk too much bout me rather than him. So, let's talk bout my dorky seth. Hmm.. he likes to eat fried egg with the egg yolk half done(soo eeew!), fries or wedges, nuggets and sambal udang. If can, everyday i cook for him like this also, he doesnt budge. Well, be it breakfast, lunch, dinner or supper. hah. As a matter of fact, his aunt cooks great great yummaylicious sambal tumis udang. I likeee. muahaha.
Okay, this is such a random post. Khai, if youre reading this.. Happy Belated Birthday. I didnt forgot youre birthday. Froz laa.. never reminded me. hehe. Have a Blessful year ahead. 20 isnt that old but you aren't getting any younger. So plan your whatever schedules wisely. The same goes to mySeth.. who soon is gonna turn 20 very very soon. God, i take back my "20 isnt that old" phrase. haha. BUT believe me, they are 2-3 years younger,ON THE PHONE. haha
10 more days and youre 20! *pops the partay confetti*
The Outsider Steps In On Wednesday, April 5, 2006 @ 1:04 a.m.
April Punk'd the gang and i, decided to pull of an April Fool joke on my girlfriend, and guys, cheers to all of us for making it a success. we managed to punk'd her and actually had her believed that infact, the prank was for real. well, it only took one person to make it all sound convincing. my aunt.
and come to think that a person of her age is still up for this kinda fun, well, i gotta say, im proud to be your nephew. haha. my aunt fooled my girlfriend and she actually 'made' her come to my place early in the morning just to prove her that she'd be punk'd. how cool is that?
million thanks to my friends, for making it happening. it feels so fun. thriller. hah. and baby, you have 364 more days to work on your sweet revenge. haha!
sorry laa for all the troubles and hassles caused along the way. i hope you guys have fun today, and hey, be careful alright. someone might just turn up out of nowhere and fool you.
seyed, we're so gonna miss you bro. call us up once you're back here. take care dude.
i gotta go now. going out with my girlfriend in a while. Happy sixth baby.
ain't nothing else i can need.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Saturday, April 1, 2006 @ 02:09 p.m.
V for Vendetta i watched that movie with the gang, minus Fai at Cathay Cineleisure just now. there's too much talking involved in that movie. you had to be really attentive and concentrate real hard in order to kinda understand the story. and yes, since im so accustomed to watching movies with my girlfriend, her absence kinda got the better of me. i fell asleep quite a few times. how pathetic! my legs were restless, and i kept changing positions countless of times.
well, i just enjoyed the day. its been really a while since we hanged out. so yea, the movie trip was a good way to do some catching up.
no worries guys. you guys are great friends, and no matter what, i won't forget you all laa. im pretty sure this gang can go on till our grandchildren's generation. all the way laa eh. haha.
im pretty much having a rough time with money now. i had to think more than thrice as to whether i should buy lunch just now. and seeing Seyed bought stuffs so freely with his NETS, it kinda made me jealous. yeah bro, im jealous. cause im always the one in the group who will shop like nobody's business. hah. so im trying my best as of today, till the 15th April,(my payday and also my 20th birthday!) to survive roughly with $80. tight budget.
its been a while since i talked about my girlfriend here, and how things are going between us. hmm. let's just keep it simple and short.
i've been spending alot of time with her. i practically see her every single day. im not sick of it. never will. im enjoying my life now with her. its been pretty good. and as days go by, we are getting closely attached more than ever. which means, we're getting stronger. i love my baby.
okay my eyes are heavy. late night work last night. and a long day out today. im deadbeat. toodles.
you're a song with beautiful words
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Tuesday, March 28, 2006 @ 01:14 a.m.
futsal
froz,fai and seyed(a substitue for one of the absentee player) played futsal on saturday.the crowd was a so-so.thankfully, the weather wasnt at all bad.the court was dusty like an old attic cupboard which hasnt been dust for quite some time.the news of them gettin on to the finals was a huge surprise.
they went home, each with a huge smile on their faces.
and im sorry baby, really am. have a good day, a good day.
love, sofia
The Outsider Steps In On Sunday, March 26, 2006 @ 02:24 p.m.
cute girl
mummy, where's my frozzy?
i love food you know
i just hope that i'll have kids like this cute little girl up here one day. so adorable. i have no say. im staring at it in awe.
i've been addicted to you.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Wednesday, March 22, 2006 @ 01:34 a.m.
pretty boyfriend
helloo people. sofia's here. fyi, sofia is froz's gf if you have no clue who am i by now. and yes, i am NOT his younger sister! hah. froz is too lazy to update his own blog. he eats, sleeps and snores like a pig. haha. and now, he is transforming himself to become one of a pretty ass boyfriend. as in pretty like a girl. if you have no idea what i am talking about just take a look at the above pictures and observe the way he pose for those pictures. that doesnt include the girlish sound effects he did.
for now, he and i are having one hell of a fun time together! he'll blog in soon.. hopefully, by the end of this month. now, that's one of an lazy ass. btw, my blog's down. i'll post my rants in his blog for the time being.
till then, chao.
The Outsider Steps In On Tuesday, March 21, 2006 @ 12:49 a.m.
Rumour has it.. what would you do, if you happened to know a guy, who slept with a lady 20years older than him, and then slept with her daughter, and then, 30years on, slept with the daughter's daughter?
guys would most probably say 'bravo!', while the ladies would go, 'horny bastard!'. haha. whatever you say, i find that kinda person cool, but at the same time, annoying. but only annoying if 1 of the ladies happen to be your girlfriend, or wife.
well. i gotta sleep any sooner. hitting the skate park later on. i'll be a dead meat by the end of this weekend. bye.
rumour has it, that i'll walk down the aisle with you.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Thursday, March 2, 2006 @ 02:47 a.m.
i feel like updating. but i just don't know what to jot down. this whole entry might make no sense, but somehow, if along the way, it makes some sense, then it's good for your health. now see what i mean? i think i can make this long just by typing nonsensical crap shit, which i think are words founded by Mr Crap Shit. okay the thing is im friggingly bored, wait, is there such a word?
*checking up the dictionary, while Beyonce's Check On It is on air.
ohh okay. it has basically the same meaning as the word Fuck. whoever invents the word fuck must be lucky. i have no idea why.
i want to skate. i want to land phat tricks. i want to enjoy the feeling of freedomness while skating. i want to grind benches and rails, and fall like an idiot, and then laugh all by myself. i want to pop that tail and drag that board to a flip and land it flat on the ground. i want to irritate people with the noise from my skateboard. and i want to run from the police. the thrills, make them look like fools. bunch of mofools.
mofools? blame it on those who keeps saying mofos. what does a mofo mean? ask mofos laa. what a question to ask. okay since im bored, let me share with you a story. a funny one. i think i want to direct it into a movie, a funny one that is, and hopefully it'll make it big in the box office, and i will shoot to fame to Hollywood. and when i become i famous, i can sign autographs for people, a thing which i've been dying to do since i was little. or if i become rich, then i want to stand on top of a building and throw money down to the people below.
so, in order to do all that, i need to let you know what story i have in mine. so here goes.
there was a kid named Ben. he is a loser and will always be one. then one day, tired of all the bullyings and stuffs, he decided to show people that he is not a loser. he wants to prove to people that he could be of someone that people will look up to. so he came up with a plan.
he bought a gun. he walked down the streets, trying to find a victim, to be shot at. and then, he saw Pierce Brosnan, with a gun in his hand too, pointing towards some man. Ben then quickly took out his gun, load it, and pull the trigger. Bang!
thrice he shot, but yet, Pierce Brosnan still had not drop to the floor. he really lived up to his name, James Bond, Ben thought, because there was no blood even! so he took cover, reloaded his gun and took aim again. he took a shot, and a couple of more after that. still, Pierce Brosnan stood rooted to the ground.
and then, someone tapped his back. "dude, that's a wax figure, you moron. hahahahahahahaha! loser!"
and he realised that he's outside Madam Tussauds. and in the end, he had to pay for the damage he had done. aww. and back to school, he had to face the humiliation. poor Ben.
okay. that's not funny. funny, but a bit nonsense. no. full of nonsense. you see, the thing is, im bored to death. i couldn't sleep longer. and thats irritating because i was working my ass off last night making coffees. and i want to skate but i cant cause i have tutoring later at 8. and God knows what the hell my girlfriend is doing right now.
it's so lethargic! im going off now. and and, i love The Pussycat Dolls. they are coming to Singapore in April! 15th April to be exact! on my 20th birthday! now that's awesome! pussy pussy, come to dadda! i cant wait! whoohoo! must go! must go! okay im excited. =) here's the details. Click Here
see ya!
can't you see that i wanna be, there with open arms.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Friday, February 24, 2006 @ 04:31 p.m.
this week sucks like hell. i cant wait for it to be over. hopefully, this coming week will rock me up.
people have been asking me about how much that puzzle i made for Sofia costs, where did i get it and so on and so for. well people, if you want to know, kindly ask me privately. drop me an email, or drop me a message via friendster. i wouldn't want my girlfriend to know all of those answers, would i? =)
and so, i've finally got my pay. not that much. and i bought a board. i've got a new board. like finally. feel kinda satisfied. it's been a while since i last spent on something that i like. all my pay has always been put aside for my bills, daily needs and necessary expenses like perfumes, contact lenses and its solution. i miss the times where i would just call up one of my friends and say, "ehh, follow me go shopping can?" haha.
well, what can i say? life is tough. and obviously money don't come in easily. and come to think that im turning 20 in less than 2month's time, it scares me alot now that im already planning out my budget every single month on how to survive and make it through each month, alive. and it doesn't get any better considering the fact that my education is on the verge of screwing up. infact i think it already did, big time!
and my car practical has been on hold. so much of wanting to get a license before this year's Hari Raya. well, hopefully, i can. for now, my skateboard will be my car who will take me to places where i can put all those worries away.
i miss Sofia so much. though i almost see her every day this week, it was only for short hours, and i swear it is not enough. i just want her to fall in my arms, and we could just sleep all day long.
like an answered prayer, i turned around and found you there.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Sunday, February 19, 2006 @ 03:38 p.m.
Valentines my day didn't go well. there were some setbacks. lost my mood. million apologies baby. i know i shouldn't have. but im just a human afterall. i tend to make mistakes every now and then.
Valentines Day is not something that i celebrate. its not something that i look forward to. and its not a big deal to me. but its just a day where i wanna make it a little extra special for that someone. but i guess i failed in doing so this year. no biggies. so yeah, next year's Valentines, i'll be like Sandy Cohen. i will dread when Valentines Day comes.
but my girlfriend swept me off my feet with the way she plays the piano. impressive like yeah. i melted. i could only stare in awe. thank you my girl. that's one unique Valentine gift you've got for me.
so i took a walk home from her place after sending her home. decided to take a long walk since its been a long time since i walk that long a distance. managed to clear my mind off things and the fresh night air is just, awesome. passed by some places which brought back secondary school memories. miss it. those usual skate spots and hangouts. damn. 5 years had gone by just like that.
and it was a 30minutes walk. cause i was walking like a dead zombie. but i enjoyed the walk though. i think i should do that more often.
i gotta go now. i'll update whenever i feel like it.
bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Wednesday, February 15, 2006 @ 12:28 a.m.
i cried while watching Smallville's latest episode. the father died, and it's so so sad. been following that show for five seasons now, and to see the father leave like that, damn its sad. it really is. what can i say. i am an emotional guy afterall.
anyways, let me tell you something funny that happened just now. okay so i was downstairs with my aunt to pick my little newphews up from school. and then they played their bicycles for a while near the playground area there, while me and my aunt sat down. and then from far, i could see these two boys in long pants from Dunman Sec under a block and they were disturbing my nephews who were riding their bicycles. i took a close watch on them. basically, they just wanted attention. ohh. they are matreps for sure. people don't wear tapered pants and made a fool out of themselves you know. matreps do. and to my surprise, my three naughty nephews were shouting back at them. trying to counter i guess. and the matreps laughed like fuck. and then, two policemen grabbed them from the back, handcuffed them and pulled them away!
what crime did they do?! i have no idea! and you know what? my three nephews were laughing back at them! it was very funny you know. haha. and they were teasing back and sticking out their tongue at those two matreps. and showed them the 'very good' hand gesture. haha. little rascals. i was laughing my ass off.
and the policemen took the boys away. i thought they were brought up to the station. i went to the shop, wanting to buy some drink for my nephews. and then, as i walked past this block, at the staircase landing there, the two matreps, still handcuffed, were questioned by the police. and on the floor....
there were stolen stuffs. let me tell you what were there. slippers. shoes. boxers. shirts. and a couple of other stuffs. goodness! block shopping! haha. stupid bunch of fatherfuckers. shame on you matreps out there man.
so there goes my encounter with another bunch of dumb matreps. someone told me that matreps are cool. well, she said some. fuck! you gotta be kidding me. i've seen enough of matrep shits and im not even 0.0000000000000000000000001% convinced that they are cool. dumb, stupid, brainless, a nuisance are the words that i can only think of when the word matrep comes across. society trash.
i think we should form a club. anti matreps club or whatsoever. then we shall kidnap those brainless matreps out there and tickle them to death. anyone willing to join?
and there's 1 mat from my baby's ex school that my friends and my friend's friends and my friend's friend's friends are willing to make him our very 1st victim. you know who you are.
here's a question to wonder. do matreps, in any possible way, look cool to you? or sound cool? i leave it to all of you now.
i love my girlfriend and im gonna feed her Macdonald's hotcakes tomorrow. goodnight.
whenever you call i will be there.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Tuesday, February 7, 2006 @ 10:38 p.m.
24 January 06 Well well. Sorry I didn’t update as promised. But here I am, to tell you on what briefly happened on the 24th of January 2006.
It was Sofia’s birthday. Her 17th. the day began smoothly. I took a cab to her place for I had to carry lotsa things with only just 2 hands. Well, not really a lot but, carrying a teddybear in your arms may look weird if you hop on a bus. So yeah, cab it was.
So I gave her a hand made card, which I swear I lacked creativity in it. But it’s the thought that counts right? A jigsaw puzzle which I ordered that consists of her pictures. An artificial of her favourite color rose, pink. And of course the teddybear. Heh.
And town it was where I spent my whole day with her. Movies, dinner at Swensens, the neoprints. It was great. And I brought her to my place at the end of the day, and..
Gave her the oreo cheesecake that I made all by myself! Can you believe it?! I made a cheesecake! To be honest, I myself can’t believe the fact that I actually bought all those ingredients and made it myself. Well, actually there were my kakak sedare and my aunt who helped out a little bit. My kakak sedare was instructing me on what to do, while my aunt showed me the way on how to, let’s say, beat the cream cheese. And then from there, I was on my own. And you know what? I feel so proud and satisfied. I hardly make myself a cup of tea at home and yet, I made a cheesecake! A cheesecake, people! And million thanks to Nur actually. She was the one who gave me the idea of making the cheesecake. And she was the one who supplied me with the recipes and instructions. Thank you!
Even 1 of my close friends couldn’t believe the fact that made a cheesecake. Haha. Never underestimate me alright. Thank god she liked the cheesecake. And I could see that she was really touched. Heh. Who wouldn’t? I myself was touched okay. I still am! Haha.
Well, I guess I’ll let the pictures do the talking then. Till then, if anyone interested in ordering a nice big cheesecake and is looking for a cheap one, call me up. I’ll be more than happy to help you make it. Peace.
this was the card that i made her. heh.
the jigsaw puzzle. okay i know my face down there extra.
the bear. lil frozzy. with the pink rose. bahh.
and the oreo cheesecake! it looks deliciously yummy, don't you think?
the neoprints. damn we look good.
stars from OneTreeHill and The O.C. my goodness.
and the lovely girl poses with the lovely cake, made by none other than her boyfriend.
you're my everything.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Friday, January 27, 2006 @ 02:03 a.m.
my Sofia is 17. Happy 17th birthday baby! You’ve grown a year older now. Sweet seventeen, that is. This is my 1st time celebrating your birthday, so let’s make it a special one, shall we?
Things haven been rough lately, but we still are together, holding on strongly. Whatever happens, im here alright?
I love you, and I can only love you more. Call me selfish but I want all of your remaining birthdays to be with me. If God allows, that is. This is a short entry. I’ll update later.
Get ready birthday girl. You’re gonna be a princess for a day, and your prince will pamper you for the whole of 24th January.
And happy birthday too to Fairus. Big 2-0 man. I wish you the very best in whatever path you take bro. whatever happens, the gang will always have your back. Cheh.
And Nur, happy belated 17th birthday to you. At least I did wish you at the stroke of midnight last night right? Hah. Im nice.
January babies. Enough of it. Now when is April gonna come?
happy birthday again, myprettygirl.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Tuesday, January 24, 2006 @ 00:00 a.m.
no one is perfect. that is so true. i've let people down in my life, and i've let myself down more than you can ever imagine. the feeling sucks. like totally. i feel like crushing my head into pieces for i've disappointed the person i love, worse still, disappoint myself.
truth is, i am a coward. pathetically coward. and yes, i don't have the guts. after what i went through last year with that particular someone, i feared of falling in love again. scared of committing myself. scared of putting my total trust in them.
but i fought it all when i saw you. i couldn't help it. i was head over heels crazily in love with you. and within a short space of time, i couldn't believe that i've already built my whole trust in you.
and then came the ultimate atomic bomb. you know, just like the Hiroshima bombing, the immediate impact was already bad, and the after effect it had was even worse. so yeah, i survived the bombing, and was struggling to pick myself up. i was in pain, pleading for help. but somehow, i managed to convince people that im doing okay.
truth is, i was never okay. building a trust is extremely easy, but re-building it? it is difficult like hell. but its still possible. and it has to be done slowly.
after that bombing, i did forgive the bomber, but i could never forget the nightmare that i had days after that bombing. it was too hard to swallow the fact that i had to face this kinda shits. cruel world? perhaps. i totally lost the trust, and since then, i have doubts about you.
but as days went by, and things are slowly changing for the better, im beginning to trust you back. its never easy, but i am really trying. i really wanna trust you back like i did before the bombing. and those doubts are slowly fading away.
each and every night, i punched that sleeping bag that i hanged on my wall to act out as a punching bag. wishing that punching bag was the face of that son of a bitch.
third parties are a big major turn off for me. guys. girls. please. i beg you single people out there. DO NOT interrupt into a relationship. because if you do so, it doesn't make you a cool person.
i gave my all and everything before that bombing. and honestly, after that bombing, i was too weak to even think about it. but, somehow everyone deserves a second chance. and im glad that i got it too. we are starting all over again.
i apologised for my unethical behaviour. you shouldn't have known it through other sources. you should have known it from me. you deserved to know it straight from me. but im sorry i was such a pathetic coward. forgive me.
do not toy around with trust. because if you do, TRUST me, someone's gonna get hurt.
i love you. we'll be fine.
like a bad star, im falling faster down to earth.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, January 16, 2006 @ 08:28 p.m.
i actually got up from my bed, switched on this laptop, just to blog in at this point of time. truth is, i couldn't sleep. and i just feel like blogging in.
i kept tossing and turning for like a million times. forced myself to sleep. but these pair of stubborn eyes just wouldn't close. and it irritates me like hell. and i totally can't sleep.
and then, i realised. i miss my girlfriend. its true that i just met her like a couple of hours ago. spent the whole evening with her. it was lovely. i felt so loved. and i swear to god, it couldn't get any better. the feeling is, damn. i guess only my heart knows it. to have someone loves you dearly, i can only count myself lucky. im thankful that someone out there appreciates me. treasures me. cares for me. loves me.
come to think about it, sometimes, i can't believe that i am with Sofia. Sofia Bte Abdollah, to be exact. its like, wow. yeah.
i've always wanted a girlfriend. pretty. nice. good. sincere. honest. appreciative. loving. and my girlfriend has all of that mentioned above. now you tell me, who wouldn't want a girlfriend of that type?
and i bet most guys out there are dying to be in my shoes. but i know, those pair of eyes are always on me. those pair of eyes of that prettygirl.
and yes, i do have my insecurities. i've been in a situation where some random group of guys would walk past us and kept staring at me. and in their mind, they're most probably saying, "nice girl, but boyfriend like shit."
fuck what these type of people say. everyone has their fair share. some are rich. some are poor. some are good looking. some are not. some are lucky, some are just not.
well, for my case, i've had my fair share of ups and downs in life. and having Sofia as part of my life, knowing my world, is just 1 of those ups that i will cherish for the rest of my life.
so if you think you have a problem with that, then i seriously think that you're pathetic. get a cactus, and screw it.
and my friends told me, they believe that i have those abilities to groom my prettygirl into a young responsible lady 1 day. and having that coming from your friends, its really flattering. just makes me feel better.
i am crazily in love with my girlfriend.
take my hand, and hold me tight. trust in me, and i'll guide you right.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Sunday, January 15, 2006 @ 05:38 a.m.
Salam Korban i wish all Muslims all around the world a Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha.
hope you guys had fun though it has been pouring continously. lovely, ain't it?
short entry for today. i wana try nap, and then im off to work. coffee anyone?
you are my only, my only one.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Tuesday, January 10, 2006 @ 09:33 p.m.
a late sunday night i had a fun time hanging out with Seyed, Khai, Ridhwan, Suwaidi and Qif last night. laughters and lame jokes filled up the chilly night, as the loud music blasted through the speakers of Ridhwan's cool car. well, what can i say, a cool dude who takes on the wheels like a pro. hmm.. now when is my turn?
speaking of which, i had my car practical yesterday. well, as you all know, it has been pouring non stop since Friday i guess? and the roads are wet, and slippery. and of course, some roads are covered with puddles of water.
so as i was driving along this whole stretch of empty road near Ubi there, i saw this group of matreps, around 3 of them, waiting for a cab, in the heavy rain, with no umbrellas! and it's like, the road, was empty. how dumb can they be? well, can't blame them though. matreps are just stupid.
okay wait. they are typical matreps. gelled, combed and dyed hair. earrings on both ears. eew. cmon man. at least wear studs laa. ohh, and yea, tappered pants of course. and my instructor was a malay guy, in his early 40s i think, and he looks like Alias Kadir, that comedian from Suria, but this is the smaller version of it. so picture it alright.
so when i was approaching the stupid matreps, here was what the conversation sounded like, between me and the instructor.
Instructor: kau nampak tu 3 budak rosak tak?
Me: nampak. (then i smiled)
Instructor: aku nak kau prah sekarang. prah eh. jangan tak eh.
Me: ah betol? ah okayokay.
they said, always listen to what the instructors say. so yeah, i did. i stepped on the gas pedal, picked up some speed, whooosh! those puddle of water came splashing all over, and yeah, those 3 dumb matreps got hit, by the splashing dirty waters. haha!
Instructor: ahh! amek kau obat! ( and he laughed hysterically)
Me: hehe.
i turned back, and saw those matreps cursing at us, with their hands flying around like monkeys. what a funny sight. i mean, you guys are already a bunch of fools stnading in the rain, most probably waiting for a cab. so yeah, a little bit of splashing water wouldn't hurt. heh.
and so, the instructor talked to me about how these kind of people spoiled his daughter. and yes, eversince, he has this kind of hatred feeling whenever he sees these trash people.
so my advice is, stay away from all these matrep friends of yours, especially girls. they are a nuisance to the society.
after that incident. i felt good about my driving. full of confidence. who wouldn't be?
the weather is all so cooling and sexy. i need some romance. girlfriend, you hear me baby? i want you now! like right now! happy 100th pretty. okay bye?
when im lost in the rain, in your eyes i know i'll find the light to light my way.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, January 9, 2006 @ 06:38 p.m.
a night out was supposed to go to MOS, but ended up in Zouk instead. due to some idiot who postponed the time to meet, the queue to enter MOS was freaking long when we reached there. and thus, we had to settle for Zouk instead.
eh Seyed, if next time wanna go MOS, make sure we meet at 6pm. bloody idiot you.
Zouk was a bore. like totally. been there a few times already and this time around, it wasn't fun. been dying to check out MOS, but damn, clubbers are attacking that place like as if there's no tomorrow for them. Singaporeans really don't mind queueing up. basically, typical Singaporeans.
i kept wishing the girlfriend was there when i danced. but oh well. but really, shiok-ing sendiri session at the dance floor can be lame at times. haha.
might be going out later to the Esplanade, to hang around. and will be meeting that kental girl later in the evening, after that dont know what hip hop shit event.
speaking of which, the sight of breakdancers battling it out in clubs is really unpleasant. like seriously. boring stuffs. i find popping way much cooler. you breakdancers shouldn't break in clubs. maybe you guys should, take a break, i guess? whatever.
next club will definitely be MOS. and this time around, we better end up inside, no matter how long the queue is gonna be. and 15th January seems so far away.
alright. i wanna sleep now, before the sun rises, like totally. good morning everyone.
and with this vow, forever has now begun.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Saturday, January 7, 2006 @ 06:36 a.m.
surprise my girlfriend bought me a Topman sweatshirt that i've been dying for and made me a card, wishing me Happy Third and a New Year. it was really cute. the artwork of Sleepy Sofia at 4am. i could only stare it in awe.
and to make things worse, i didn't get her anything! not even a simple red rose could save me this time. due to my tight constraint budget, i have to watch what im spending. $20 for the remaining 2 weeks till my pay comes in. now that is sooo horrible.
i should be the one getting her stuffs. nvm. by the time her birthday arrives, i'll be able to have some cash in hand. but seriously, i feel so pathetic. money plays an important role in our lives. without it, you're gonna struggle to live up with the rest of the world.
and she even treat me for dinner just now. godd. but thank you anyways.
so she booked a pit at Pasir Ris Park on the 28th. for her birthday, what else? so yea, we'll see how it goes.
MOS this friday. it's been a while.
okay i'll go now. school later. bloody sick school. take care people.
im singing cause you're so, so into me.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Thursday, January 5, 2006 @ 01:00 a.m.
the new year countdown was okay okay la. the canon thingy. they charged us for fucking $19 and all performances were all full of shits and craps. the fireworks were kinda lame, and yet they made a big deal out of it. what the hell? so not worth it.
and the after party, well. stupid DJs. chased people away with trance and house music. should have sticked to those hiphop beats instead. and there were like a few mats who have never been to clubs before i think, and were dancing like mad people, like as if there was never gonna be a 2006 for them. maybe they thought they were at some ska fest or something. instead of dancing, they moshed. kids nowadays.
and Fina won a free 1 million smses for the whole of 2006. thats cool. and she got a little bit of fame on stage for about 5minutes? also can laa..
we crashed the beach foam party at Sentosa after that. got in for free, thanks to those tags that party go-ers threw after they were done with it. the atmosphere was a bit better than the one that i went 3years back, but it was all the same. but trance and house music were on air. well, what can i say. Seyed told me that these type of music can make someone drunk really hyped to dance. so let it be that way then.
after which, Sofia's father came all the way to Harbour Front to pick his daughter up. and so i had to send her all the way from Siloso, to Harbour Front, and then back to Siloso. can't blame the father though. he's a policeman. and he knows what can happen at these kinda things.
but if only he knows that her daughter would be in safe hands of a good boyfriend.
the bus ride back to Siloso was pathetic. i was alone in that shuttle bus. and i was stupid enough to sit just behind the apek driver. and so, he asked me lotsa questions. i was too tired to answer. but i gave 1 word answers instead.
took 65 back home. slept in the bus. got home at 8 and slept. afterwhich, i went to work. double pay baby.
so yea, that was how i spent my last day of 2005, and first day of 2006. i want a better one at the end of this year. like really really a better one.
going out in a while to hang out with the gang. i'll bomb in again if i have time tonight. laters.
so please take, this piece of my heart, and never let it go.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, January 2, 2006 @ 03:12 p.m.
last entry aight. this will be my last entry for 2005. feel like blogging in again. so here i am.
to all friends i've lost contact with, hope to catch you guys in the street. a HI and a BYE would do. and i wanna thank Fai for recommending me the job at CoffeeBean at the transit area.
i made a lot of friends down there. like really alot. and managers down there are all really friendly. they treat you like a friend of their own. and my colleagues down there, closed ones like Fiza, Ayu, Wan, Najeeb, and apparently Yassier. haha. you guys rock my time during working hours. and managers like Irene and Farid, thanks for teaching me lotsa things. and the mother of barista, Kak Norsiah, thanks for teaching me on how to make sandwiches! haha.
seriously, working there has turned me into a more mature person in terms of working. it taught me lotsa things. especially about initiative and responsibility. and about teas and coffees! fun! and mind you, working life is hard, but it can be fun, if you know how to make it fun to you.
well, lets see. my 2 RP girlfriends, Kyn and Yatie. where have you guys been man? we have to catch up on things like real soon once school re-opens. hope so. you guys have been so busy with God knows what. i really miss those gossiping times man.
alright. i wana bathe now. mind you, i just woke up from a 12hours sleep. heh. gonna party tonite. and i'ma grind that prettygirl till the music stops.
friends of Sofia, no worries alright. as long as im still breathing, Sofia will be in good hands. thats my word, to all of you.
i go now okay? goodbye 2005, and hello 2006. one love.
life has never been this fun, with you around.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Saturday, December 31, 2005 @ 05:47 p.m.
2005 2005 is coming to an end. well, what can i say? it has been one hell of a year.
at the beginning of the year, i partied alot. clubbings and parties. well, it was fun. especially when your friends are there. they sure hell know how to make clubbing nights a fun one.
then, somewhere around the mid year, i lost someone. someone whom i've been talking everyday to for the previous 18months. but too bad i had to let it go. i just couldn't take it anymore. especially, my heart. but i've learnt alot in that relationship. like really really alot. and i dare say that i understand girls much better now, than in the past. and i have to thank her for that. but losing her, was a blessing in disguise.
cause that move, led me to a lovely girl. a lovely girl named Sofia. and yeah, i've learnt alot too having involved in this relationship with her. and i wanna learn lots of other things with her along the way. and hold on to her for as long i possibly can. she is my sweetest sin. my sunshine. and because of her, i got to make a couple of new friends. people like Fina, Maisarah, Atiqah, Idah. its my pleasure knowing you all.
lets see what 2006 has in store for me. a driving licence is on the way. number 20 is coming up. and maybe perhaps the year where Singapore will have its 2nd Singapore Idol, Fairuz Ramlee. haha. big joke.
to my friends, the six of you especially, may sweet memories flood our 2006 dudes. cheers.
i gotta go now. the kentalgirl is waiting for my call. Happy New Year people! have fun. enjoy. have a great weekend. have a blast into the new year. and please take very good care of yourself. God bless.
and ohh, Happy Third Baby. im loving you more each day, prettygirl.
your kisses, they blow me away.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Saturday, December 31, 2005 @ 12:43 a.m.
first and foremost, thank you Fina for the treat. it was nice of you to treat us. i'll treat you guys one day okay? and yeah, it was fun that day.
and Qif, Happy Belated 19th Birthday my friend. chehh. 19 already seh. haha. your dreamgirl will come, sooner or later. good things come to those who wait. hell yeah.
i had fun with my girlfriend yesterday. madness. sweet. exhausting. heh. she was funny. cause she was being clumsy the whole day. made me laughed like nobody's business. crazygirl. and im meeting her again later. best.
so we are going the Canon thingy outside Harbour Front tomorrow for the countdown. let's just hope it doesn't suck big time man. otherwise, $19 down the drain. let's just hope the party down there is not lame. it's been a while since these pair of legs do some dancing. bleargh.
aight. i'ma take a nap now. lack of sleep. take care people.
and ohh, Aqilah, if you happen to read my blog, i dont know cause you dont tag. well, Happy Belated 17th Birthday to you too, dearest friend. enjoy life.
bella luna, my beautiful moon, how you swoon me like no other.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Friday, December 30, 2005 @ 03:58 p.m.
my tuesday is extremely pathetic. it rained. why the fuck? ruined all plans that i was supposed to have with her. the packed bag, well, you just stay where you are. i'll bring you out when the weather's fine, God knows when.
my day was spent with me, facing my laptop, and then when i got tired, i took a nap. and when i couldn't sleep, i faced the laptop again, trying to find something interesting to do. but in the end, i'll just end up on my bed, yet again. how boring. i dont wanna waste my last week of holidays just like that man. and the worse part is, i am not working tonight.
the only thing that's gonna enlighten me up is the EPL highlights later. and after that, i'll be scratching my head on what i should do for the next dont know remaining hours before i fall asleep. again.
im out.
the stars, they hide tonight.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Tuesday, December 27, 2005 @ 10:00 p.m.
1 year later.. exactly 1 year ago, well not really. exactly 1 year and 1 day ago, tsunami struck Asia real bad. thousands died, and thousands more were left homeless. i've seen some of the footages captured on video, and it was really heart wrenching. while the disaster took away lives, what was i doing? i was snoring away, due to the tiredness from the previous night clubbing session with my friends. and that night, was 1 hell of a night. but still, i felt bad.
Sofia saw some things in my laptop, which are not meant for her eyes. and it had me a little embarrassed. i feel like strangling myself. grr. but nvm. and she surprised me with this little note that she wrote. or typed. sweet!
i love my girlfriend so much. and and, i feel bad right now. and guilty. cause i made her wait for soooo long for us to talk on the phone, as i was out with Qif and Fai, riding. and guess what? she's asleep right now. she fell asleep. urgh. bad bad boyfriend.
nvm. i'll be seeing her tomorrow. i'll make it up to her.
okay. im addicted to that Ghost of You song. My Chemical Romance. their songs are getting nicer and nicer each day. well, successful bands always come up with better and better songs each time.
i'ma wait for a while, before i sleep. who knows, that prettygirl who's busily snoring away wakes up and gives me a surprise call. i might get lucky. or a miracle might happen. okay bye.
everything that you need, i got it right here baby.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Tuesday, December 27, 2005 @ 03:51 a.m.
Chrismukkah went out with the prettygirl yesterday to the esplanade on Christmas' Eve. the streets were packed. crowded. and people were having fun everywhere, running and spraying those cans, God knows whatever's inside. heh.
and yeah, we proceeded to the thingy outside mall for the countdown. it was very very pathetic, i tell you. but nyeh, i enjoyed myself with the company of my girlfriend.
aight. working tonight and tomorrow night. and then, i'ma enjoy my remaining week of holidays. new year's eve? i have no idea where to go. seriously. okay tv's calling me.
Merry Chrismukkah people. Happy Holidays!
nothing your love won't bring..
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Sunday, December 25, 2005 @ 03:24 p.m.
a bad one.. last night, i had a dream. a bad one. a terrifying one. a horrifying one. 16hours of sleep, and all i could remember was that dream. and mind you, i could feel it. like it was real. and the images kept popping up. crystal clear.
it took place on an island. a beautiful one. so me and Sofia, we were there. if im not wrong, we were there for our honeymoon. bleargh. but anyways, we were having fun, enjoying each other's company. candlelight dinner by the beach. and on that island, there's this meter, i dont know how to explain it, but i'll try my best. there's this gigantic scale meter. its function was to gauge the power of an earthquake. something like a Richter scale. and if it hits the red zone, it means Tsunami is on its way.
so i was facing that humungous meter, while enjoying the great food. and then, the ground shook tremendously. and that scale meter, it hits the red zone! and sirens were heard all over. people scrammed their way to safety. there were pushings and shovings. screamings and shoutings. and of course cryings. i took Sofia's hand, held on tight, and ran. like duh.
when i looked back, the waves were chasing us. and within seconds, the water swept away our feet, and next thing i knew, we were floating, the currents drifting us further and further up.
i lost grip of Sofia. but i managed to snatch her back. i held onto her. there were many heavy objects on our way and we had to avoid it. and before i realised it, Sofia was crying. i told her that everything's gonna be fine. i promised her that we'd make it through alive, together. from then on, i held on her hands as tight as ever, enduring the tiredness and the blood thats flowing everywhere from open wounds.
then came the best part. as the water receded and everything came to a calm, i saw Sofia, kneeling down, with a man on her laps. she was crying helplessly. nonstop. i approached her, at the same time wanting to know anxiously who the hell that man was.
less than a metre or two away from her, i stood rooted to the ground, shaking. that man was dead. it was ME. and both of my hands, were still holding on tight to Sofia's. i died.
and everything after that, went blank. i woke up, with tears in my eyes. i was shaking, in fear. i died in a dream. and in that dream, i never kept the promise that i made. it's scary, and it's freaking the hell out of me.
i gotta go now. rest assured, i love my prettygirl, no matter what happens.
i'll be your number one with a bullet.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Wednesday, December 21, 2005 @ 09:46 p.m.
for the 1st time in God knows how long, the 6 of us finally managed to hang out together yesterday. Me, Fai, Qif, Seyed, Khai and Luke. it was great. a day when everyone was free. from work, from school, from girlfriends. and to conclude that, we still had our childishness in us with that stupid spitting game. X marks the spot people! haha!
okay, my family's back. cool. my aunt bought me this long sleeve tshirt. a striped one. nice. whee. and and, you know what..
i miss my prettygirl. dont know when the hell will i be seeing her. nvm.
you're always dressed to kill.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, December 19, 2005 @ 03:55 p.m.
i wanna start off by saying that i miss my little sister, like a lot. her laughter, her cries, her singing. basically, everything. damn.
on Friday i had a date with a pretty girl named Sofia. destination: town. window shopped, walking aimlessly, snapping pictures. the neoprints thingy, it was my very 1st time. it was fun. and cool. and at the end of the day, i got myself a blazer, and i got her a black top, and i dont know what it's called. bleargh. but anyways, thank you for everything, pretty girl. i love you too.
last night, i went out with qif, luke, seyed, fina and mais. to the mall. hanged around at coffee bean, and off the funfair outside mall. missed Faridah's performance. we were late. and so, we proceeded to the arcade for some little madness. it could have been more fun if the pretty girl was there. but nvm.
a year has passed since i 1st stepped into a club, with my group of friends. and within a space of 1 year, we've been to a hell lot of clubs and each clubbing night was always a night to remember. to my clubbing gang, thanks for all the fun and craziness during this past 1 year. i havent been to a club for like 3months now. maybe i should go for 1 last time before 2005 come to an end. and that will be the end year beach party at Sentosa. just hope that the pretty girl agrees to go.
my cough is back, and my throat hurts like hell. i just hope it doesn't get worse. and my family is coming back tomorrow. i miss them. and today marks the last day of my lonely life at home.
till then, i wana get somemore sleep. anyone got a plan, call me. girlfriend, if you feel like meeting me, tell me. im out.
you know how much i want you to know that you are my only one.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Sunday, December 18, 2005 @ 01:20 p.m.
im a bad liar. and that makes me a bad boyfriend. no wait. not only a bad boyfriend, but a bad person too. firstly, cause i lied. and secondly, i suck at it. like totally.
just wanna make things clear. i did it all so as not to make you worried. if you were to find out, i knew you'd be worried. and i dont want you to worry so much since things hasn't been going on smoothly for you at home. i wouldn't wanna add salt to the wound.
but then again, i shouldn't have lied. im pathetic in many ways.
look at the stars, look how they shine for you.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Wednesday, December 14, 2005 @ 12:49 p.m.
crash in parties, anyone? so once again, it's been a long time since i last blogged in. kinda busy and a bit of lazy to update. haha. well, my school holidays are officially undergoing and poof, its already the 2nd week. im all alone at home for this week till Sunday. family's off to KL. i wanted to go, but i bet it'd be boring, considering the fact that the person my age who is following is only me. bahh. i'd rather stay home and enjoy this empty apartment. and i cant bear the thought of leaving my dearest here alone. okay, not alone, but without me.
anyways, i missed out on Zouk Out. low on cash. heard that it was freaking happening, but nvm, there's always next year, or parties ahead to look forward to. sorry Seyed for not going.
life's been great. been hanging out and conferencing alot with the girlfriend and Lolitas. and my friends too. it's a pleasant sight to see my friends getting along really well with the Lolitas. another few more outings, we'd be a great bunch.
i don't know when im working again. pay's in 3days time. i wonder how much will go in. gotta settle the bills 1st. and then pamper the girlfriend, and then i'll pamper myself with lotsa apparels. striped polo tees! wheehoo..
but i just shopped the other day. 2 striped polo tees and a striped long sleeve smart shirt. maybe i'll get myself a pullover.
or maybe brown sneakers?
or a mash cap?
suddenly, im so fickle.
aight. anyone wanna crash in my crib for some late night parties, just gimme a buzz. you know where to find me.
okay. Adam Brody's hair is super cool. nice. no wonder girls are crazy about him. i want hair like his, can? okay can.
waiting for Sofia and Fina. Qif is already here. movie starts in about an hour. haha. im crapping. okay im out.
you know i love you so..
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, December 12, 2005 @ 05:02 p.m.
i miss that girl.. i wanna start off by saying that i owe my friends a lot, especially to the lolitas, and Thaqif, for helping me out with Sofia. thanks girls, and qif, you've been 1 hell of a friend. sleepless nights, angry thoughts, a trophy display of bruises. they're gone now. i can finally rest my mind in peace. my heart gets the beat going, once again.
i've forgiven the girlfriend for i know we humans are not perfect. we tend to make mistakes time and again. it would be unfair to shut the doors at her 1st mistake. everyone, i believe, deserve a 2nd chance. its better that i forgive and forget about this whole thing, cause i know she will learn from the mistakes that she has made.
aight. i won't talk about this anymore. but if that same third party were to bother again, i guess i gotta do something about it. maybe approach him like how Ryan approached Volchek in The OC. haha. okay abit too much of drama here.
im glad that my friends get along well with the Lolitas. they are lovely people, and its impossible for us not to get along well with lovely people like that. =) i hope we all can only get closer.
my Saturday was well spent with her. thank you for everything. i miss my bee. i can't wait for her to come back from KL. damn. Wednesday seems far away. it's gonna be weird not getting a goodnight wish from her for the next 3 nights. *sigh. its only 3days and im acting like she's gonna be away for 3months. heh.
okay ima go now. heading to the showers. just woke up seh. and Seyed, sorry dude for not turning up the match. i couldn't wake up. you can't blame me though. the weather these days are so lovely. very lovely indeed. makes me wanna sleep and never wake up. and idah, all the best for your CLT course kays. and Fina, i wish you all the best too for your very 1st work later on. take care people.
cause everytime i breathe i take you in, and my heart beats again.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Sunday, November 27, 2005 @ 06:42 p.m.
Sofia Abdollah
this was the 1st snap that we took together. and i will always treasure it. the memories we had on that day are still crystal clear in my head. the funness, madness, craziness and rowdiness we had, they can never be replaced. everything went the perfect way that day. it was the beginning of what i thought, a beautiful relationship. and i still think it is.
no one can love Sofia Abdollah like i do. no one can care for Sofia Abdollah like i do. and obviously no one can make Sofia Abdollah fall in love like i do. no one in this world deserves her like how much i do. i don't know how i made her fell for me. but what i do know is that i did it all, with clean intentions. i came into her life with a clean heart. a clean mind. a clean soul. looking for a beautiful companionship that i see in her. someone whom i will find comfort in. someone whom i can breathe easily with. someone who will take good care of me, my heart, and soul. just someone to love.
Sofia Abdollah was a girl i used to be crazy about. is a girl i am still crazy about. and is a girl i will always be crazy about. Sofia Abdollah was a godsent. Sofia Abdollah taught me a lot of things. Sofia Abdollah is a sweet and nice person who will always comfort me whenever i have to face shitty family problems. Sofia Abdollah
brings joy and happiness to the next level. Sofia Abdollah brings love to a whole new dimension. Sofia Abdollah teaches me on how to have fun, the better way. Sofia Abdollah is the girl i wanna be with every single day. because being with Sofia Abdollah is superdamn fun. i learn new things everyday. now how many people can make that hell of an impact to you? i have no regrets in knowing Sofia Abdollah. i see Sofia Abdollah as a blessing in disguise. im blessed. like totally.
i won't give up on Sofia Abdollah that easily. i will give a fight. a tough one for the other party. im not gonna lose the girl that im crazily in love with that easy. i'd do anything to have her back. and if by giving her some time off is part of it, i wouldn't mind having to do that. if timeout is what Sofia Abdollah needs right now, i cant say no. cause that would be so ungentlemanly of me. that would be selfish. that would be unfair to her. ups and downs are part of a relationship. if there aren't any, what kind of relationship is that? i believe that the downs can only make your relationship stronger. let's hope Sofia Abdollah can free her mind and do the thinking. what's best for her, is best for me. her happiness is mine too. she needs to be happy in order for me to be happy. i hope she takes the right path. that is, come back to me. i cant breathe easily without Sofia Abdollah.
Sofia Abdollah, im sorry you had to go through all this. its so unfair to you. you dont deserve to face all this. a sweet girl like you deserves something better. way much better. i dont blame you for what had happened. infact, i blame myself for not being able to be there, at the time when all of these started. i dont want us to end. i love you and ur gfs, they are lovely people. i wouldn't wanna lose lovely friends like that. and i love the fact that you can get along with my clique really well. they think im lucky enough to get a girl like you. its funny though. 1day you.me, we were having fun, the next day, it hit rock bottom. infact, this was our 1st major argument and it ended up with us taking a break. sadness. well, that's relationship for you.
for now, im just gonna sit back alone, waiting for you, to come back. im gonna miss you like hell. those sweet smses. those late night phonecalls. those hugs and kisses. im sad. real sad. real bad. i've been waiting for your Os to be over, and now that it's almost done, we have to face this. thats sad.
Sofia Abdollah, whenever you're ready, im here, waiting for you with arms wide open. ready to welcome you back too. i love you baby. i shall take my leave now people.
and people, love, it doesn't suck. not at all. it just hurts, sometimes. but above all, it's a lovely thing. enough said. I LOVE SOFIA BINTE ABDOLLAH. VERY MUCH
you are the strength that keeps me walking.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, November 21, 2005 @ 06:05 p.m.
a Saturday that rocked Saturday, 19th November 2005. a day well spent. the raya outing this year was definitely better than last year. 12hours of madness. the laughters and the snapping of pictures were priceless. thanks everyone for the fun we had. and come next year's raya, at least 3 more of us will be joining ridhwan on the road, driving. me, khai, luke. let's hope we'll get our license by then.
today, i rot at home the whole day. boredom got the better of me. i spent my day on my bed, surfing the net, watching tv, surfing the net again, chatting on MSN, and i just finished watching The O.C. while, my girlfriend is out there, in this cold weather, jalaning raya again. that's not fair. i wanna jalan raya again. but nvm. it's been a really quiet Sunday with no one at home, and no one to talk to. i want my girlfriend now.
well. here's a snap or 2. and the other pictures, you can view it here.
Sofia.Fairuz.Raya'05.
Kami ingin mengucapkan, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2005, Maaf Zahir Dan Batin.
The Outsider Steps In On Sunday, November 20, 2005 @ 10:02 p.m.
someone pissed my girlfriend off, and eventually pissed me off too. thanks to that idiot, a small quarrel occurred between me and her. i've had enough of third parties ruining my relationship. especially if that third party is a blast from the past. sickos desperados. that shows that you're just not 'laku' enough to get yourself a new gf. poor you. i've never been involved in a fight before in my entire life. but the temptation is building in slowly. IF you won't stop bothering my girlfriend, IF you keep going after my girlfriend, IF you cross the line, i have no choice but to go after you. and i might just keep my mouth shut, and let my fists do the talking. when i said enough is enough, i really mean it. enough said.
The Outsider Steps In On Friday, November 18, 2005 @ 03:32 a.m.
its been a while since i last blogged in. too lazy la i guess. haha. school is still the sameoldboring place to go to. 2more weeks and im on my holz. i cant wait. simply cant wait. i'll make use of my holz to work, earn cash, and have fun. the healthy way. heh.
didn't go out that much this year for raya. i told ya. but still, i managed to bag in $100+ during collectioning. hehe. well, the raya outing with her and her friends kinda went awful though. thanks to those boys, goodness gracious. i seriously have no comments man. da sah budak budak 16 tahun. no offence to those who are 16 though. 1 last outing this Saturday. with my clique. that will be something. we'll have fun.
anyways, went to Sentosa with my dearest girlfriend. it was friggin hot. the weather i mean. but my girlfriend's hotter though. haha. the weather was such a turnoff. i don't tan, so yea, it was really a bad timing to dip in the waters. plus, the water's dirty! the last time i went there, it was quite clean. what the hell happened, i seriously have no idea. but i had fun anyways, though i was struggling with the sleepiness in me. didn't sleep the whole of the previous night, thanks to midnight shift.
speaking about work, i love work. haha. no kidding. it's like, i look forward each time im going to work. maybe its because Christmas is coming, and the transit area is filled with those white asses, so the atmosphere is kinda there. i can't wait to wear that Santa Clause hat. whoohoo!
alright. i gotta buzz off now. i'll update again, whenever i feel like updating. haha. so yea..
I see you. I see me. I see Love.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Thursday, November 17, 2005 @ 07:06 p.m.
on a beautiful morning, i looked so bright.
no wonder the kids were so eager to have their pic taken with me.
the family shot.
this girl's gonna grow into a beautiful lady 1 day and have all guys drooling over her. Dinah Shafinaz's the name.
at my grandma's. that's only 1/10 of her family. the other 9/10 were missing.
me.my grandma.my aunt. such a small lady, but a big family stands by her side.
aisey man. brad pitt melayu ah.
no wonder my friends call me berg. now i understand why. hah.
aite. thats all for now. goodnight everyone.
i love you, and no one can love you like i do.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Saturday, November 5, 2005 @ 01:41 a.m.
i wish you.. Salam Aidilfitri to all muslims out there. Maaf Zahir dan Batin ya jikalau ada terkasar bahasa atau silap kata. harap dimaafkan. nanti saya buat lagi, tahun depan minta ampon lagi. haha.
well well. can someone tell me why i don't really feel the vibe this year? last year was okay laa, but this year, like lethargic like that. maybe because im sitting fer my maths paper this coming monday. ehh. cepat sehh. fail lagik ah ni. next year amek lagik. whoohoo. ahh. 1st day of raya was spent snapping pics. didnt expect to get some cash though. but they kept coming into my pockets. so i just accepted it whole heartedly, since im still young at heart. haha. hmm..
and my mum came over. with the husband also. and my lil sis. aww. i miss that lil girl. damn. well. my mum didn't talk to me though. so yea. screw it. but i did talk to her about my lil sis. knocked some sense into her dead brain. and there's this pic that we took as a 'family'. and it looks so fake. you'll know why later.
ima take a nap now. bee's having fun with her family raya-ing while her poor boyfriend is here, stucked in his room, down with a diarrhea. damn those lontongs. and most probably i'll stay in again tomorrow. and maybe even Sunday. we'll see how it goes. urgh. lethargic-ism. im just lookin forward for 19th to come. gosh. thats a long way to go. anyways, i'll post up the pics at night. the server's undergoing some maintenance shit. happy raya-ing people. take care.
your kisses can never quench the thirst that i have for you. cause i've never wanted enough.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Friday, November 4, 2005 @ 05:17 p.m.
31 days 31 days. and the digits will accumulate each day. 31 nights ago, i surrender my heart and soul to that lovely girl. and eversince that, she has been taking good care of it. she brings life to another level. she brings joy and excitement to the extent of satisfaction. she shows me love, in a new dimension. something new. and i wanna thank you for that.
my room's finally clean. *smiles. its fresh. and and, im going to get myself ready to meet her up. new hairdo. whoohoo..! okay i'll update again tonight. i love you baby. happy first.
from the day that i saw you, i knew that we would pursue..
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Tuesday, November 1, 2005 @ 04:34 p.m.
Programming is so not my cup of tea.. the crazy girls with their bunga api. i told ya.
The One With The Sweet Snap. Love.
i swear i dont know any single thing about programming. shit. its pure rubbish laa. taking up IT was a big mistake. i didn't know it'd be this tough. and boring. and my facilitator for my programming module is a fucking son of a bitch. he has this stupid cock face, always smiling, and always picking on me. fucking racist. i couldn't be bothered though. each time he asked me a question, i would just go, "ahh.. seriously.. i dont know anything.." yeah. straight forward short answers. and his face is like asking for a punch. like seriously.
i don't look forward to go to school anymore. being in a class where you're the only malay guy, and there's only another malay girl, doesn't help you. im an outsider. outcast. i just can't seem to click with those chinese. and it's driving me crazy. i miss my year 1 classmates. i really clicked well with them. and i miss gossiping with Yatie and Kynn. it's been a while since i last hanged out with them. same school, different class now. but it seems that we're separated miles away. Yatie is too busy with her love life now, and i dont know what happened to Kynn. and the only harapan friend i have in RP is Thaqif. if he doesn't come, like just now, i'd most probably go to the mosque nearby, and take an hour's nap. hah. sleeping in a mosque is like sleeping in heaven. peaceful, quiet, and cooling. greatness.
a lot of shits happened though these past few weeks. to make things worse, i lost my dearly earpiece and i lost my pretty Puma jacket! i feel so sad. that jacket made me felt good. looked good. Brody-ish. and now, its gone. and i bought a new 1 just now. this time, i paid $20 extra for about the same jacket, but different color, and material. texture i mean. and the color is brown.
im running low on cash. gotta give those nephews and nieces of mine green packets come 3rd November. my last year celebrating Hari Raya as a teenager. let's see if i still get those green packets. that girl told me i look 16 though. rite?
i can't wait for my holidays to come. i wanna enjoy. with her of course. there're like so many things that i wanna do. anticipating. and i seriously need a break from school. the education system in Singapore just sucks big time.
im going off now. the weather's nice. and how i wished you're with me now. i miss you laa beeeeee...
i don't think i want you. i need you.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Thursday, October 27, 2005 @ 11:25 p.m.
her girlfriends.. alright. so another trip to Geylang, but this time, it was with her and her bunch of crazy girlfriends. haha. you girls are just simply lovely. crazy lolitas. and i swear they all looked cute when they played bunga api at the open space on top of Joo Chiat Complex. haha. yes. they did play bunga api. i'll show you the picture when Sofia sends it to me later. madness. hee. thanks girls for the craziness in you all. though i wished i could have hang out with you girls longer.
bee.. now i think i know why you're crazy. haha. can't really blame you though. hee. =P but i still love you crazygirl.
aight. im gonna end it here. i've got work tomorrow. damn. must come early somemore. 7. grr. a tiring day, but a day worth going through. till then..
i see love, when i see you.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Sunday, October 23, 2005 @ 12:08 a.m.
today's class was great. only 8 people turned up. thus, allowing us to interact more with the facilitator. we had to read this play and analyse it. it was freaking good. it's called, "Red Stop, Green Go", by Desmond Sim. the play had me thinking about my life.
life has been great with her around. i couldn't ask for more. it's like, what i've been wanting for all this while, they are all right infront of my eyes. but like what most people say, 'you gain some, you lose some'.
sad part is, i lost both of my parents. not that they are gone out of this world, but apparently, just beyond my reach. okay maybe i didn't lose them. they left me. my dad has done that a long time ago, and it seems that my mum has follow suit. these people, they never think of their children. they only want what's best for them. my aunt claimed that my mum has gone over her limits. and i wont be surprised if 'war' were to erupt anytime sooner in this house.
i grew up knowing nuts about my parents. seriously speaking, i don't even know when their birthdays are. the date that they got married. i don't even know what their favourite dish, drink, color is and etc. and let me tell you this, neither both has ever wished me on my birthday. and even if they did, i don't seem to remember any.
i don't know what it feels like to be beaten up by a father. to be shouted at by a mother. to be nagged at when i failed my exams. father's day and mother's day are alienated days to me. and i had to forge my mum's signature when i was in primary five because my mum wasn't anywhere around to sign those freaking consent forms, exam papers or parent's letter. i didn't know as to whom i shall call a guardian.
i remember this particular incident well. i was in Primary Three and i scored the highest in my class for my Malay language. i went home and saw my mum in my room, taking a nap. it caught me by surprise and i was told that she was gonna sleep over for a day. the rare sight of her lifted me up with joy. so i approached her with rowdiness to tell her about my achievement. and yeah, she surprised me again by shouting at me, saying that i was rude because i interrupted her beautiful sleep. with her pissed off face, she took the pillow, dashed out of my room, slammed the door behind her, and went into my aunt's room, and continued sleeping. so yeah. all i could do was, stood there, rooted to the ground, dumbstruck. speechless. and then my tears got the better of me.
and now that my mum doesn't wanna give me my allowance anymore, it ain't bothering me. my aunt told her that when one day i begin to earn real money, don't regret if i never ever gonna give her some of my pay. and my mum simply said, "biar lah, aku tak kisah pon. kakak nak sangat duit dia, kakak amek laa."
yea mum. i'll mark your words. i don't need your money now to live. all those past money that you've been giving me, it's not like you gave me with ikhlas. you forced yourself to give it to me for i am your responsibility. tell you what, you don't have to worry now. for i refuse to be your responsibility anymore. it only shatters the faint hope that i have; that is- love, care and concern from my own parents. biological parents, to be exact.
catch me now, for i am falling like a bad star.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Wednesday, October 19, 2005 @ 09:00 p.m.
Ice Cream anyone?
Sofia took this shot.
and then Thaqif took this.
Fairuz/s with their girlfriends.
time:2215hours, date: 15/10/2005, location: Paya Lebar Mrt Platform, event: 2gays listening sharing music together, thanks to Ipod Shuffle.
ahh. celebrity couple. picture perfect.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Tuesday, October 18, 2005 @ 11:16 a.m.
so my laptop is back safely to me. no data lost, and i was told that everything is fixed and is working fine. we'll see if it's working tomorrow in school.
these past few days without access to the internet has been hell for me. it was freaking boring at home. the fact that i don't have cable tv or playstation or Xbox worsen the level of boredom. let's just say, Mediacorp channels suck big time.
so i passed my Basic Theory Test, and im looking forward for my upcoming car practicals. like finally.
the outing with my friends and her was great. breaking fast at Swensens was something new that we did as a group. it's not like everyday these bunch of guys eat at that kind of place. and the Geylang trip, well, let's just say, don't head to Geylang on weekends. jam packed. the next time i'll be heading there will be most probably on a weekday, before buka, to buy my raya clothes. anyways, Saturday was a day well spent. the craziness of my girlfriend and the non stop camwhoring, and as always, the slengerness of Thaqif(no offence dude), they were all priceless.
Sunday.. Hmm.. i wouldn't wanna say anything. but let's just say, it was 1 of the best nights i've ever had. aight.
Loving you is an understatement. i want to be able to do more than that.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, October 17, 2005 @ 10:37 p.m.
aight. so im not going to school again. practically because my laptop is down. not that its totally down, but my wireless card slot is spoilt. so yeah, come to school, i cant log in to internet. no point coming as RP conducts lessons via online. so im going off to Fujitsu later to get something done. i dont wish to be in school, where i would just sit there and not doing my work. oh well, im sure my class hates me or whatsoever. im the only malay there. well, theres another malay girl though, but it doesnt make a difference.
sooner or later, i think my family will know about the relationship im having with Sofia. considering the fact that kids nowadays are so tech, they tend to share whatever's online with their parents.
a couple of days ago i was at my grandma's house to break fast as a whole. and you expect kids to turn up and make noise and enlighten everyone. well, lets just say that these adek sedara sedara of mine are fascinated by friendster and blogs, and 1 of them even has a blog which has my link. and when they were browsing through my blog, my uncles and aunts were like surrounding them, looking at what theirs kids were looking. my blog. haha! so yeah, most probably their parents know, and then words spread. they might.
not that im afraid that these might fall into my aunt's pair of ears. im sure she wouldn't mine. i mean, come on, im turning 20 in a space of 5months. that old. but im just afraid that there may be awkwardness around. but what the hell. im crazily in love with that girl and im proud to be known to people as, Sofia's boyfriend. a kental one, that is.
i miss my girl. Saturday seems so far away. and this week, has been a slow week. i better hit the showers, for i need to get this laptop some serious treatment.
whenever you're with me, i feel like a prince. that's how magical you can get.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Thursday, October 13, 2005 @ 09:04 a.m.
Abandoned.. i've decided that i will not go to school later. simply because, i don't have the mood to go. it was spoilt. and its all thanks to someone whom many would refer to as, Mum.
so yeah. let's just say. my biological parents divorced when i was at a tender age of three. i have a father who is earning good cash and having a happy family. and i have a mother who is enjoying her life with her family. but im not living with either party. why? its simple. neither of them wanted to take care of my custody. which brings me to the next question;- why even bother conceiving me in the 1st place? GOD knows why. and my dad owes me 1K and my mum doesn't want to give me my pocket money anymore. let alone taking care of me. and its been months since i last saw my dad. and i only see my mum like, once in a month? or maybe twice. and i've learnt that neither my mum nor my dad took care of me even when i was little, before they got divorced. they 'threw' me to my aunt during the weekdays, took me home on Fridays and return me back to my aunt on Sundays. and my aunt has been there for me eversince i was brought into this world.
Mak, thanks for standing by me and treating me like your own child though. i've sinned towards you all this long, and im sorry for having done that. and now i know, how much you mean the world to me. i love you.
i don't mean to sound rude or anything, but im just not proud of my biological parents. not even one bit.
and to my love, i miss you and i love you and i need you now. as in, really now cause all these are driving me insane.
my life has a shape, and its YOU.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, October 10, 2005 @ 02:13 a.m.
Bills.. my hp line is being cut off due to not making full payment by the due date. im totally broke and i need exactly $100 to get my line back. and my pay will only come in on the 15th, that is, IF it comes in. till then, my cell is dead. at least temporarily.
take care sweetheart. im already missing you like hell, and to make things worse, my line got cut. its just 1 of those days. well. nvm. just bear in mind that, i LOVE you.
it's you, that i miss.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Friday, October 7, 2005 @ 02:05 p.m.
Fasting.. and so came another Ramadhan. its like so fast. time really flies laa i tell you. and i cant wait to drop by Geylang. go survey baju kurung laa. what color should i buy this year? suggestions please..
anyways, i met her on Tuesday. went to study Maths near my block. and you know what, i seriously need some serious bucking up. i was struggling like hell doing those sums. too many forgotten. damn it. its either i nail it, or screw it again this time around. oh well..
anyways, we went to Changi Village to have dinner and then spent some time together by the beach. damnations. it was lovely. calm water. the sand. the breeze. the starless sky. plus the aeroplanes zooming by. lovely. to the maximum. and im so gonna miss you for it'll be a very long time till we meet again.
Love is just not about making out. its about appreciating your partner's presence. its about understanding your partner inside out. its about facing shits together, and clearing the mess up soon after. thats love for you.
my theatre appreciation class rocks. 3/4 of the students are malays. its a class filled with people who are rock solid in their English. and when i said rock solid, i really mean it. with the kind of English i possessed, im struggling. but hopefully i can get the hang of it. so Wednesdays aint that bad for me now. at least there's something different to look forward to, rather than stupid fucked up IT shits. dumb. and im halfway through screwing my precious future. being a full time policeman is something that i am seriously considering. or.. i really dont know. join in some Mediacorp competition and get myself lucky. then who knows, i might be Singapore's most chased about celebrity. okay STOP. thats exxagerating. bleahz.
im out from here. bloody damn school. good night people. puasa ehh. jangan tak..
Sofia, I Love.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Thursday, October 6, 2005 @ 12:36 a.m.
01/10/2005 01/10/2005 is a day for all children to celebrate Children's Day, but it is also a day where two souls finally became one. two hearts combined as one, beating together. two crazy lovebirds unite together. like, finally.
the 1st date we shared, it was perfectly lovely. the whole day spending time with you was priceless. the movie, the dinner, the hugs and kisses, the craziness between me and you; they were all worth more than dimes. fantastic. i swear that i feel like a king when i hold you in my arms. kissing you under the night sky by the bay was so havenly. i wish that the night wouldn't have to end. it was too perfect to end.
so yea, i did surprise her. with that writings on that shirt and the ring. my heart skipped a beat the moment i asked her that. madness! but thank god it all went by so fast and things just went the way that i wanted it to be. i was on cloud nine. or maybe even closer to cloud ten. okay whatever. haha. it was my 1st time doing something like that. so yea, you could imagine how nervous i was. shaking a little. heh. but hey, i made it through. *phew..
the only part missing was the snapping pictures part. snapping it with a camera phone is so not satisfying. ohh well, we can always take it on our next date. but when is that gonna be? i have no idea. fasting month is just a few days away. but anyways, this is a new beginning of a new chapter in my life, and i hope this chapter will all end with a smile. three cheers for sweet love..
p/s: to those freaks who tagged her.. well, if you guys happened to be reading this. i've got nothing to say to you guys but to feel sorry. it's such a pity that you guys had the guts to tag whatever things you wanna tag, but didn't have the guts to put your name. shame on you. let's just all grow up and hey, we're living in a free world. she blogs whatever she feels like blogging in. i blog whatever i feel like blogging in. and i think that applies to all the other bloggers too. my advice is, get a life. as in, really get a life. i am sure that you have better things to do. sick people. i wonder why even God created you in the 1st place. to make you look and sound like a fool i guess?
baby, i love you. whatever shits we're gonna face, it's me and you against the world. just the two of us. cause all i need in this life of sin, is me and my girlfriend.
take me away, i've got nothing left to say..
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Sunday, October 2, 2005 @ 09:48 a.m.
okay it's been a while since i last blogged in. been very busy though these past few days. and soo tiring. due to work. argh. work work work but pay never get. citot. come 15 this October, the pay better come in. or else.....
anyways, last Saturday, i went to this bbq pit at Pasir Ris Park. it was the reunion. of secondary schoolmates. the pioneer batch. okay to be precise, basically only the express classes were invited. and some teachers came too. plus, our favourtie big phat ass principal! former principal to be exact. haha. it was nice seeing all these people back. a trip down memory lane. gosh. so fast and 3years just passed like that. and many people change. physically. and im 1 of them. i guess? hee.. and it was fun taking pictures with the whole bunch of them. food was typical though. i brought sandwiches. pathetic it may sound. but it's better than coming empty handed. shame on those who didn't turn up. these kinda things, they don't come across your life everyday.
if only they could bring us all back to school for a day, be in our uniforms and bring our bags and sit at the parade square for our reading period and sing the national anthem and as well as reciting the pledge, plus a day of sitting in a class pretending to study; i wouldn't mind man. i wish. i miss my secondary school days so bad that i didn't realise 5years zoomed past me in a blink of an eye. just like that.
well.. she's tight busy with her prelims now. oh well.. prelims.. those were the crazy days. all the best to you baby. my prayers are with you. have faith in yourself please. and O levels are nearing. okay im worried. for her and for me. we'll see how it goes people.
this week seems to be passing by so slow. god damn it i don't know why. work has been lethargic lately. i guess i've had enough of work and need to take a break. seriously. okay tomorrow midnight will be the last i'll be working until school reopens next week. i need a rest. i think the lattes that i've been drinking at work got the better of me. it made me awake for like most of the time, that now, i lack of sleep like miserably. should have pull a decaf shot. nvm.
anyways, i can't wait for this Saturday. we'll be going out. as in, our 1st date together. and i have something in mind. surprises. oh how i love surprises. well. you've gotta wait till this weekend to find out. till then, these are some of the pictures. more will come i think.
from left: Sam, Me, Ahmad, Seyed, Khai, Syaz, Zila.
bounce baby, for i look like a bouncer. haha!
if i show you a pic of her 4years back, you wouldn't believe the fact that she used to be big in size. as in real big. technology helps. and she's a hot property now.
missing you is an understatement..
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Wednesday, September 28, 2005 @ 12:56 a.m.
I love you.. I woke up from a pretty dream
Wishing that you were next to me
In my life I had never seen
The most beautiful charming queen
Try to be the one you wanted
And the one never divided
I know in the past that you were hurt
But now all things are taking a turn
I see a glimpse of hope in front of me
I know that we are meant to be
Give me a chance to prove it to you
Let my dreams come true
I can see it through your eyes
You smiling deep inside
I can sense what you feel
Nothing comes in between us
I will not let them pass
I’ll be your guarding shield
Let’s just take it 1 at a time
Slow or slower I don’t mind
You’re the reason that I shine
24/7 day and night
Nothing is ever oh so late
What we have is not a mistake
August eight is today’s date
Baby please love me, not hate
this song was composed, specially for you, on the 8th of Augut 2005. baby, i love you too.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Saturday, September 24, 2005 @ 04:57 a.m.
one crazy night.. just got home from clubbing at Momo, and i guess this story will go on from people to people, on how pathetic i was. i fainted in a club. fainted sounds sissy. well, i knocked-out in the club. blacked out. right in the middle of the jam packed dancefloor. no, im not a drinker. blame it on my empty stomach. it was crazy i tell you. 1 moment i was dancing with my friends, the other moment, all i could remember was i couldn't see anything but pitch darkness. and i felt myself fell to the floor. and then i felt people carrying me out of the club. which were thankfully, my friends. while getting towed away, the urge to vomit just right there was very high. my head was spinning. body suddenly felt weak.
once outside the club, there i was, like 1 mad pathetic drunk dude, vomitting countlessly, while being watched by many. and i thank my friends, especially Fai, Khai, Seyed and Ash for being there for me. without you guys, i think i'd die in the club of suffocation. or being stepped. thanks guys once again. and im really really sorry that because of me, you guys had to miss the fun in the club, as it had to happen at the very happening hour. im sorry man. my deepest apology. it's not that i planned that this kinda things would happened. that was a rare case. and i've never fainted in my life before.
and the girls that were dancing around us must have thought how weak this guy could be. haha. who cares. nonetheless, my friends rock big time and i owe you guys 1. and i wonder what would have happened if i am a heavy drinker? hmmm..
anyways, to my sweetie angel pie.. all the best for your prelims baby. i believe in you, that you can do it. have faith bee. i love you. and im doing just fine.
this time, it feels so different. so special.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Friday, September 23, 2005 @ 07:41 a.m.
cause im in love with you.. i love blogging late late at night. so quiet. and peaceful. but apparently, my stupid cough, which has been going on and on for more than a week now, is a nuisance on this silent night. and what irritates me more is that it gets really worse when im sleeping. how pathetic. i hope this cough will go away soon. maybe i need more kisses. haha. what a stupid hint.
you see. you have lots of things in your mind to blog about, but when it comes to updating, mind is blank. anyways, today work was lethargic. few customers. means less work to do. and it was so mendak. well. it was a boring Tuesday i tell you.
conferencing with bee, Mais, and Qif was fun last night. there were quite a few of silent moments though. i guess the God and his Goddess were shy laa. heh. i look forward to more conferencing aight. maybe we can add in a few more peepz. and im not sure as to whether i want to go Beach Rd tomorrow. like lazy also have la.
anyways, i can't wait to see you again. i know it has been only yesterday since we last met. but i guess i can never get enough of you la you sweetie pie. like i said, the more i see you, the more i can't get enough of you. grr. geramness. honestly, to tell you the truth, all of these, are just too good to be true. it feels like a dream. i can't believe for the fact that you're mine now. i mean, c'mon people. to those who know me. you know i am so the kental, and yet, i land myself a pretty chicqa. ahh.. all these motivations and inspirations simply comes from the man called Adam. Adam Brody. you rock dude! *like as if he reads this. haha. he's like giving all those nerds and geeks out there a hope. that hey, though you're a geek or a nerd or whatsoever, you deserve yourself a shot. with the ladies. or lady. of your dreams. everyone wants a naughty girl. and i've found myself 1. thank god. whoohoo. okay that's crap.
but anyhow, i am the luckiest man on Earth right now. why? ask me personally. hurhurhur.. okay i better go now. my English breakfast tea is gettin cold. chehh.. *mentang mentang la aku ni barista, nak action plak. pooo daaaa...! okay i better shut up. I heart You bee. Period.
I miss you girl..
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Wednesday, September 21, 2005 @ 01:14 a.m.
hands down 17th September 2005 was the best day of my life yet. just like how i wished it would turn out. infact, it was beyond expectation. it was great. and im just glad i didn't screw things up. so, my guess is, i kept my cool. did i? oh well. it was 1 hell of a Saturday. the dance comp thingy was great though. had fun watching it. the hanging out part after that was even better. with Thaqif's trembling hands. haha! it was funny la i tell you. Mais, if you're ever gonna read this, some guys just can't keep their cool infront of a beautiful girl. haha. damn hilarious. the night ended pretty well though. thanks everyone. and especially YOU.
no words can describe on how it feels like to hold you. to hug you. let alone, kiss you. i love you, my princess. i do.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Sunday, September 18, 2005 @ 06:54 a.m.
I wonder.. its near 11am and i just got home from clubbing. very late right? ohh well. last night's clubbing wasn't that great though. Attica was a bore actually. probably my mind was somewhere else, i think. didn't feel the vibe to club like i used to. usually i'll be the active one, but i was a bore myself last night. but the thing i like about when going clubbing is the going home part, where we will choose a spot to slack and talk for long hours. talking cock is what its known as in Singapore.
anyways, we sat at Macdonald's near CPF building there. we reached at about 4. and then, our talking cock session lasted for 6hours flat. and everyone were so into the conversation, and it just needed a very interesting topic to be brought up. GIRLS. okay. not really girls. but, plus LOVE. and this topic will keep everyone on their feet, and awake, especially when you're talking in the wee hours. it got interesting and more interesting as each 1 of us opened up to each other. Love is a sacred word, and sex is a sacred form of art. appreciate these 2 with great respect, and you will be blessed.
and a special shoutout to my friends. these 4 lovely friends whom i am glad i am friends with. Fairus. Thaqif. Khairul. Seyed. you guys have been great all these years. giving me tonnes and tonnes of advices though you still know that i am quite a stubborn person. giving me encouragements and confidence. reminding me to think of only the positives. asking me to put all the worries away. man. i seriously don't know what i'd do without these people. they are like, always there when im faced with any problem. be it, family problems, girl troubles, love headaches,or even problem with my own self. like, how to deal with my low self esteem. and most importantly, i appreciate you guys for tolerating my nonsense, especially because im the most irritating 1, always coming out with lame jokes and making up something that is useless. but still, you guys are appreciating who i am. for being me. that's cool.
to Fai, thanks for giving me advices all this while and sharing all your problems with me aight. and in return, i'll give you advices too. and thanks again for recommending me to CBTL.
to Khai, thanks for listening to my shitty stories and again, all those encouragements. and also for asking me to be myself. for, if people who doesn't know on how to appreciate me for being me, its their lost. right dude?
to Qif, though you're like the slenger among us, your words are sometimes strong and meaningful. and each time we brag about how sucky we look, it really made me satisfied. it was fun, and hey, don't think about the past. instead, look ahead man.
and lastly, to Seyed, the man whom i am totally amazed by. no experience in a serious relationship yet, but yet he listens and gives advices like a pro. i guessed you've seen many relationships through your friends, and you learnt from it. a wise person with a lot of maturity who will never fail to give confidence in yourself. thanks dude for believing in me, especially when you said that you're confident that she won't let me down. i hope the right 1 will come for you man. that girl is sure lucky to have you my friend.
i really wish at 1 point of time, all of us will be happily attached. but that seems quite impossible la. but its still possible though. oh come on girls. we are nice guys, aren't we? and you girls always talk about wanting to have a nice boyfriend. so taadaa.. here are the nominees. heh.
be yourself. be cool. i will heed that. like what seyed said. 'the cool guys get the hot girls. the nice guys get the nice girls.' soo.. what do cool and nice guys get..? they will get themselves awesome girls. i opted to be both cool and nice. and i hope the awesome 1 will find her way to me. or has she already found her way? i really hope so.
i am a nice guy, and im cool. so do you want me?
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Friday, September 16, 2005 @ 10:56 a.m.
Cravings.. watching the game between Man Utd and Villareal now. and the game is so slow la. boring 1st half. hopefully, the 2nd half will turn out well.
went for my work orientation just now. it was okay la. nothing fun. after the whole thing ended, the airport baristas went to have dinner. me, fiza, yantie and kok wai. while najeeb and fadillah went home. i didn't know fadillah look sooooo like Rila Melati. haha. macam macam la. got Mas Idayu lookalike la. Rila Melati lookalike la. Adam Brody lookalike la. *ahem* okay no names mentioned here. hehe. okay anyways, we had dinner at Macdonalds near Tiong Bahru Plaza and poor fiza had to go work after that, for she is working midnight shift.
and tomorrow im attached to the outlet at Singapore Post. why? to sort out letters laaa. like someone said. hehe. it's part of the training thingy. oh well. and at night im hitting the club. Attica. but i don't feel the vibe to go. not really looking forward, though it's been a while since i last club. maybe it's because of you. you. you. you. i wanna club with you laaaa. come my house ahh. we club. confirm happening one. heh.
okay my blog song is an old song by Backstreet Boys. ahh. remind me of those boyband days. haha. but anyways, its such a sweet nice song. i will sing it to you this Friday, with this sucky voice of mine. nyeh heh. here goes..
Here we are in the arms of one another
And we still go on searching for each other
Knowing that hate is wrong
And love is right
For us tonight
When I look into your Spanish eyes
I know the reason why I am alive
And the world is so beautiful tonight
It's a place I've never been
And it comes from deep within
And it's telling me that I'm about to win first prize
Knowing all I have to do
Is reach out my hand to you
Anytime I want to look into your Spanish eyes
Let it be if we're nothing more than dreamers
Who believe that we see no wall between us
How can they be in my heart and in my mind
When all I could find
When I look into your Spanish eyes
I know the reason why I am alive
And the world is so beautiful tonight
I loved you from a distance
Thought I couldn't reach that far
I can't believe how close that we are
When I look into your Spanish eyes
And the world is so beautiful tonight
I will sing you this song like i mean it..
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Thursday, September 15, 2005 @ 03:45 a.m.
The O.C.. im telling you. The O.C rocks big time. i just watched the season 3 and goodness gracious it was hell dramatic. and Marissa is soo sweet, doing the right thing for her boyfriend, which is Ryan by admitting that she shot Trey, as Ryan was wrongly accused. god. and Marissaaaa, which is played by Mischa Barton is so pretty laaaa... *melt..
but belobee is prettier. hehe.
and so for no reason, my throat hurts and im like suddenly down with a terrible cough. what the hell is wrong with me sia. nowadays keep falling sick. sickening and irritating. damn it. grr.
watching The O.C makes me wanna do all the things they do as couples. romantica. ahhh.. ohh and you melt my heart away with your singing abilities. dropdead gorgeous voice. blew me awayyyy. i want more of that okay? okay im gonna hit my bed now and dream of all those things. with beeeee of coz... heh.. good morning everyone. and enjoy your Monday.
and i'll give you the life that you deserve.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, September 12, 2005 @ 05:56 a.m.
this love.. you know what. this is going to be a short entry. A Cinderella Story is just the same as to what i am going through. the love plot i mean. this crazy internet world. and i can't wait to look into your eyes and do all the things that i promised you. i <3 you. period.
with your hands on my waist, i will kiss you like i mean it..
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Sunday, September 11, 2005 @ 04:34 a.m.
hope.. and this is a very nice picture of a group of nice friends.
from top, clockwise: fairuz.fairus.thaqif.lukman.seyed.khairul
afternoon everyone. i only had 5hours of sleep. how irritating is that? and i have to work later on at night. confirm shagged laa. did something new last night. gourmet. i learnt how to make sandwiches and i didn't know it was that easy. heh. but still, it was damn tiring la when it comes to the closing part. hours of cleaning and wiping and washing. damn i swear my back hurts. but the time passed quicker. and and.. i don't know if it's true or not ah, but the manager who was working with me told me last night that i am the harapan of that outlet. i am up to the expectations that they wanted and it was told that all managers enjoyed working with me. haha. up and rising barista. expert espresso bartender. lol. hope he's telling the truth ah. not like, you know.. play play just to make me feel better. idiotic sia like that.
and tonight you have to watch one tree hill alone. aww.. so sad laa. but nvm. tomorrow's a friday belobeeeeee.... wheeeeheeee... and starworld is pathetic la. but i so can't be bothered. cause im downloading it through the net. heh. i download for you la beee.. then we can watch together. so fun! and ohh.. Chad is splitting up with Sophia? nooooo.. that can't be happening.. i can't bear to see her with some other chap. i mean it's like, i can't bear to see You with another guy. You as in You. Youuuu.. get it? okay nvm. hope they'll breed juniors as soon as they can. because children will be 1 of the reasons to hold you back from splitting from your significant half. but unfortunately, for my case, it didn't work. ohh well..
and finally the day has come.. 8th September.. the premiere of the 3rd season of The O.C. ohh noo, i can't wait to watch it. hopefully when i get home from work tomorrow morning, the files are already there to be downloaded. what's gonna happen to those foursome? i wonder..
so fast and it has been 42days. and i truly wonder what's really gonna happen within the next 42days and so. i wanna end this year on a high note. i wanna end this year with a kiss, right at 0000hours where i will kiss you and put all my sorrows of 2005 behind, and start 2006 all afresh with you. a brand new start. take my hand, for this soul will only lead you to the places that you can only imagine. those birthdays. Valentine. those happy monthsarries. (if there is) hehe. i so can't wait for all that to happen. i miss surprising people. and you, of all people, will be the chosen 1. the lucky 1. the only 1. to get my surprises. hee. i know im near that line. it is so near but yet, so far. but only time will tell as to whether i could cross that line, or not. i am thinking, i can. it's possible. okay i have to go now. i wanna grab something to eat. something to bite. can i bite you instead?
beautiful things happen when BumbleeBee meets BeloBee..
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Thursday, September 8, 2005 @ 04:15 p.m.
beautiful beginnings.. sleeping away she is while im up blogging in. may you enjoy your dream in which i star in it. heh.
work was okay today. chill. worked with a new barista, Fiza. cool girl to work with. very easy going and and.. she looks like Mas Idayu. the dangdut singer from Malaysia. any idea? hahh. nvm. tomorrow i'll be working midnight, and i still have no idea on when to enrol for my driving licence. tight schedules. but whatever it is, i wanna get my licence before January. 24th January to be exact. and don't ask why. it's a surpriseeee... heh.
by the way, i had fun going out on Saturday. and guess what? i went shopping! yippee! i bought myself a pair of white Levis jeans. okay la. not really white, but got a bit of biege. so you imagine okay. and then i bought a Puma jacket. a dark blue one. and it's soooo niceeee. it suits me and when i wear it, i feel so Brody-ish. soo coool! haha. ohh ohh.. and i bought a Spiderman boxers for $5. how cool. and the next time im going shopping, im getting myself that California airline bag, and maybe a black jeans or some cudroy jeans. and also perfume. maybe Hugo. 15th September, can you come faster? i want my pay! ohh.. and i hope i can rock Attica on the 15th. anyways, back to the Saturday thingy, we went to Suntec for the dance thingy and then slacked by the bay. again. ohh it is soo lovely i tell you. i wish someone else was there. ahh.. in the near future perhaps yea? okay good. and then we went back Tampines again, and slacked at Generation, till like.. 6 in the morning? haha. that's what happened when people we don't see often, like Chye and Suwaidi came down. it was great talking crap and gossiping as always. though i did fall asleep at some point. couldn't take it laa. tired.
and to my taggers..
fai- friday night belongs to me and her. so excuse us please. thank you. heh.
Qila- yes yes. im in love but don't worry. i won't kill you.
Izyan- haha. nvm. no biggies. and i will link you up. see ya.
Wan- apa oi oi..
anonymous- thanks for saying that and i would really appreciate if you tell me who you are aight.
Fiza- fiza mane tu? i know many Fizas laa.. heh.
Lintz- yeah. i miss my secondary school days. real bad.
Buza`- hello bubu! i am back to blogging. and you take care also laa..
MinahSalleh- and finally, youu.. im a hot property laa.. you sure you can handle me? haha!
ahh.. seeeee.... i am so niceeee.. i layan all my fans.. these crazy fans... thank you people.. keep on tagging and you'll be rewarded. hah! like, whatever? heh.. my bed is calling me and my baby is waiting for meeeeeeee.. okay Go!
I can have everything in this world but i'll sacrifice it all for her..
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, September 5, 2005 @ 02:43 a.m.
nightfall.. another 5hours of conversation. sweet conversation. was how i spent my friday night cum saturday morning. it was beautiful. non stop hits. i mean, talking. heh. there's like so much to talk and 5hours wasn't enough. even forever won't be enough. okay that's a bit exxagerating. hehe. suddenly, i didn't feel the urge to sleep though the medicines were supposed to be putting me to sleep. heh. thanks for being a listening ear. i really need to let all those out. im beginning to feel comfortable in opening up to her. and i hope you feel the same way too. and i wonder which friday will i be seeing her. hmmmm.. *the clock ticks on by..
im on my way to full recovery and i'll be hitting the road later on. chehh. step ade vehicle jer. heh. whatever la eh. okay im off to tutoring now. and you know what, i hate my comp, i swear! now that everything is okay, the sound thingy is starting to give me problems. ala.. ade jer ahh.. tak boleh tengok orang senang sehh.. aku buang kau baru tahu.. okay i better go before i get merepek-ier.
i knew i loved you before i met you
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Saturday, September 3, 2005 @ 12:27 p.m.
Happy Teachers Day.. after going on for 31hours without sleep, i finally had my desired sleep, and i just woke up from a 12hours sleep. and it feels so weird. it feels so strange. missed calls from my friends. messages from them asking me about the supposedly beach road plan tomorrow. about asking me to go club tonight. about wanting to come to my house and slack. all of these, were ignored by me as i was busily dreaming away. about something. someone. some place. heh. okay la not that i ignored purposely, but my cell was on silent mode. so yea, sorry peeps.
but that one message from that particular someone had me feeling guilty. 1 whole day of silence. god. i feel terrible now.
so yeah, i had a blast going back to my secondary school. the 'eversolovely' EastSpringSec. haha. the moment i stepped in the school, it brought me those memories. bittersweet memories. those kentalan days. the foyer was a great place to hangout. the lovely wind. the walkway was cool to me, because me and Zaki were walking towards the toilet and there were like sooooo many students looking at us, staring, and i would dare say, some were admiring. these lovely handsome boys. haha. but seriously, it felt good. *grinz. but still, i got so overjoyed when i saw that makcik at our favourite stall, selling those lovely rice with awesome gravy and stuffs. i swear i missed those food so bad. and its cheap. i ate like nobody's business. and then the atrium brought back funny fierce memories. where i remembered, that we had a fight with those freaking chinese. the exact location where Fahmi punched that poor guy, and all scramble started. it was crazy. not really a scramble. but a mini riot. heh. those childish days. and finally... the school hall. ahhh.. those assemblies. sitting on the floor. the humid atmosphere. the stage where i performed my stupid backstreet boy's dance. those Nsync days. those Eminem days. the talentime! the stupid Blink182 act. haha. not forgetting, watching your fellow schoolmate got caned publicly. and i must say, the school is more hipped now. they hired crews for the sound system. deejays tuning in to club beats. spotlights. and sure as hell my juniors have all groomed into beautiful young ladies. *smiles so wide.
meeting the teachers were fun. Mdm Chin suddenly looked so friendly. Mdm Noreha is as ever as a child. small and energetic. Mr Jailani aka Wak Jai still has his moustache the same style. and the list goes on and on. and ohh, our favourite sexay teacher, the bomb, the J.Lo of EastSpring, the hot mamasita that has all boys drooling each time she walks on by, the beautiful Miss Salena Salleh..... she won the babe of the year. *cheers guys for that senorita. ahhh.. i miss my secondary school dayssss.. Poly life is soooo different. i miss the naggings, the scoldings, detentions, remedials, assemblies, flag raisings, the pledge, the teachers, my long lost friends, muggings and the list goes on and on and on...
and i saw Shahira with her friends. Shameen, Dian, Siti, Izyan and yaadaa yaadaa yaadaa. but sad to say, Farah wasn't there, and so was Shailla. and it had me dumbstruck for a sec. those foolish days. i messed up real bad with these group of girls, that even when it was all so long time ago, it felt awkward. especially when Shameen tried to pick a conversation with me about that Paris Hilton shirt, i answered with a 1 word answer. even when Dian tried to talk to me, i excused myself before haywire begins, and i had to glance away each time i saw Siti. i couldn't imagine what would have happened if Shailla was there. i think i'd run. heh. come to think about it, it's funny, but yet stupid. thank god im all grown up now. haha. which brings me to the next point. people were saying that i have a much bigger body now. like hello? i worked out okay. haha. but im still skinny la. scrawny. but it was flattering though. at least people have seen that i changed. and Mdm Noreha said i am all chubby now. like what the..?
and its a long entry once again. and my body is so weak, my throat hurts. the temperature's rising. my eyes are blurry. my nose are running. my hands shaking. terrible headache. and im feeling cold. i need a hug. someone spare me please? and i have school later on. i can' afford to skip. but if all these are getting worse, i might need to go to a doctor and get an MC. and those medicines.
the night is so quiet and i feel bad. really. seriously. i hope you didn't misinterpret things for the fact that i didn't message you the whole day. im sorry?
till then, wish me a speedy recovery yeah.
and yes, Happy Teachers Day to you too. for you have taught me something in life. and since when you're into Paris Hilton? i'd prefer the Sophia Bush way...=)
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Thursday, September 1, 2005 @ 03:18 a.m.
fairy tales.. I just got home from work. And work was damn tiring. Very. There were only me and the manager working. The other staff that was supposed to come didn’t come. And there were tonnes of customers. We were slammed countless of times. And I was shaking the whole day. Kept dropping things. Kept forgetting stuffs. And when I did cashier, I stumbled on my words each time I was talking to a customer. I choked on the words real bad. These are all signs indicating that I am all burnt out. My energy level has been all used up and I totally need a rest. And when I mean rest, it’s sleeping the whole day. I haven’t been getting enough sleep these past few days. Okay sleep is not bad. I didn’t even get a proper rest! I shall listen to her. I should relax a bit on my work. I’ve been working too hard.
Nonetheless, Friday night was awesome. Superb. Lovely. Wonderful. Beautiful. Ahh.. No words can describe it. 5 hours of talking. Crapping. Laughing. Sharing stories. Damn. She sure has the kind of voice that I like. That I’ve always imagined how she’d really sound like. And I can’t wait when the next Friday comes. This time, I won’t be working the next day. Because I requested not to, so that I can talk to her the whole night without having to worry about my sleep. Hehe. Its been really a long time since I last talked to a girl in the wee hours. I love doing that. Because it’s like a dream. Haha. What crap.
Saturday was a great day too. Me, Fai, Qif, Khai, Seyed and Luke went to the esplanade. We watched the dance comp thingy at Suntec. But I came late la cause of work. We had fun hanging out. Snapping pics. Laughing out loud over stupid childish things that we missed doing. Its been a while since we last hanged out together. Me, Fai busy with work. Luke, Khai busy with their SIP in school. Seyed busy with his FYP. And Qif busy with motor pracs. And I can’t wait for holz. Those overnightings at Sentosa. Late night riding to Pasir Ris Park. Camping at Changi. Clubbing fiesta. And perhaps skating in the wee hours at Simei MRT station, and get caught by the faggot cops. Haha. Damn damn. Hope this week will end fast.
All of a sudden, I have this sudden urge to meet her. Come to think about it, Hari Raya will be coming soon and I bet I’ll be alone by myself while my friends enjoy the company of their significant other. If I bring her along, she will know people like Nur and Malinda. Maybe it won’t be awkward. It’ll be cool. Bringing back old friends together. Haha. Unlike last year, when Henny was being a pain in the ass. Oh well. But I’m kinda scared. Not really scared as in scared, but more of a shy-shy scared. Haha. She’s a beauty. And on the other hand, I’m a beast. Guys like me never get the chance to get a girl of that caliber. If that happens, dogs will fly. Okay that’s crap. I don’t believe looks is the main factor in a relationship. It’s only an added plus to it. Though I am not dropdead gorgeous, I consider myself grateful for I was born a normal human being. Physically and mentally. Nowadays, you see good looking guys attaching themselves to the not so good looking girls, and the good looking girls attaching themselves to the not so good looking guys. Sometimes the good looking will be with the good looking, or the other way round. So it’s kinda fair. And with that, I will think of only the positive outcomes. Confidence. And someone used to tell me; Brad Pitt, I may not look like. But when it comes to the heart and personality, he’s nowhere near me. Not even an inch. Now THAT, has been keeping me going and going. It’s flattering. Really. You can change the way you look with the technologies available, but even the most hip technology can’t change your heart, your behavior. And I thank the one above for blessing me with a good heart. It’s the most precious gift.
It’s a long entry but who cares. I will turn in now, and dream of you.me.us. Sweet ones. Naughty ones. Lovely ones.
My heart is yours to fill or burst.
To break or bury.
Or wear as jewellery.
Whichever you prefer.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, August 29, 2005 @ 02:08 a.m.
appetite.. today, i have no idea what's up with my appetite. i had a great day eating. i had a heavy breakfast at school in the morning. and then i had a full packet of french fries with chilli sauce and mayonnaise. and after school, me and the God of Pepmber, Thaqif went to Marina Square. i wanted to buy the pony jacket at Royal Sporting House but all the nice ones are gone laa. bloody hell. ohh ohh.. and i bought a vanilla crown at Andersens and then we ate at Marina Square's food court which has a lovely scenery of the whole Esplanade and the CBD area. i had rice again. and after that, while at Esplanade, i ate a Blueberry cheesecake from Mrs Fields. ahh..
speaking of Esplanade, me and Thaqif went to the library to slack, while waiting for time to pass by since he was having his motor prac at 8. and while doing that, he Pepmber me laa. talk to girl on phone. nabeh he.. everytime sehh.. so i had no choice la but to entertain myself, by browsing through FHM. and local ones are so kental compared to those from U.S. hehe.
when i got home, i thought i had a migraine. damn. it was real bad. and it still is right now. can somebody like massage my head for me? *sighs..
she is busy studying right now. but hey, still has time for me. that's cool. and Friday is like minutes away. whee..~ i love Thursday cum Friday night. cause when it reaches midnight, One Tree Hill airs on channel 5. and that's when Sofia watches Sophia on tv. cuteness. haha. okay i just received a message. must be her.. whee..~ toodles peepz..
The O.C is a freaking goood show laaa..
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Thursday, August 25, 2005 @ 11:10 p.m.
you're beautiful.. I just woke up from a long beautiful sleep, and all of a sudden, I feel an instant gush of missing someone. And I don’t know why. Hehz. I wonder what she’s doing right now. Probably thinking of me while mugging I guess? Haha. What a joke.
Work was great last night. Working with Irene is cool. She’s an easy manager to get along with. Friendly. But she likes to ask me lots and lots of questions. Like, what powder to use laa, how many scoops laa, how many shots laa, and the list goes on.But other than that, she’s okay. And last night I worked with another Barista, named Safalynn. Cool name. and she’s small I tell you. At 1st glance, you thought she’s 15-16 years old. But oh boy, I found out that she was born in 1981. so you do the count alright? And goodness, she couldn’t stop talking the whole night. Blabbing nonsense continuously, crapping and laughing out loudly. She’s crazy. Hyper active. And she kept on kacau-ing me as you know, I’m kinda new down there. She looks like a kid and she sounds like a kid. She also acts like a kid. And yet, she’s the 2nd of 5 siblings. She even wanted to follow me throw rubbish at the basement. But when she talks to me about her relationship with her boyfriend of 5 years, I could finally see a 24years old woman talking. It was pure maturity. A classic 1. And she’s sweet. I enjoyed her company though at times, I swear she was frigging irritating, but in a cute way. And she’s so small.
After work at 830, I met up with Fai for breakfast and we chilled till it was like, 12? Haha. That long. Non stop talking. And gossiping. And for your info, Thaqif is now the President of Pepmber. King laa. And he just graduated with a Masters in Pepmber Techniques. Haha. Bloody pepmber boii luu.
And O levels is like, 3months away? That’s fast. And I am so frigging worried. Very. I wish someone could give me those set of prelim papers from different schools. Anyone. I need guidance from a person who’s been getting a proper guidance. I need to brush up. Like, right now? This is crazy. I am just plain stupid for being pure lazy. That’s my problem. I wish we could go on a studydate, and she’ll be doing all the naggings and teachings and guiding. It’ll be lovely. But if its best if we wait till exams are over, then I think we better stick to that. Because I fully understood the fact that she doesn’t wants to get distracted or carried away. I respect that. Plus, I think it’ll be more exciting if we could just wait till the exams are over. Can you imagine, you’re close to someone but have never met her? Only with the help of online pictures and stuffs. And then after months and months of contacting, you guys meet up. I wonder how it is going to turn out. Hoohoo.. It’ll be fun. And exciting. And also very nerve-wrecking. Hehz. But I’ll just anticipate for the moment. For the day to come. The day when my eyes decide to lock with hers. I’ll wait. And it will be on a Friday. And 25th November sounds just nice. Just nice. I’ll just wait. For I can hear a voice inside of me saying, that somehow, all these, all of these, will be worth the wait. I’ll just wait.
My heart is yours to fill or burst.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Wednesday, August 24, 2005 @ 08:08 p.m.
Paris Hilton today, i walked past Paris Hilton countless of times. the life-size cut out figure of course. hehe. near my workplace, there's this shop called 'Perfumes&Cosmetics'. the name itself explains what kind of shop is that. and they display the Paris Hilton fragrance on the front. like they do it on purpose. and sure as hell they do attract bulging eyes. that Paris Hilton is soo hot. so sexy. so smooth. and most importantly, so beautiful. plus cute. thanks to my manager today, i walked past Paris lots of times, going to the other coffeebean outlet back and forth. i felt like taking a picture beside it. ahh.. i am crazy when it comes to Paris Hilton. she makes me drool. stunning body. each and every photo that she takes, she looks horny. and god damn i enjoy the sight of it. okay enough. before i myself get a little bit out of hand. hehe. i got to get some sleep. good night people.
and also to you, princess.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Sunday, August 21, 2005 @ 02:46 a.m.
quiet night it's a very very quiet night tonight. friday nights aren't supposed to be like this. but i guessed every other nights has its' own ups and downs. oh god, what am i crapping? but nonetheless, the whole of today, it felt weird. something's amiss. i don't know if it's me or is it something else. fridays supposed to rock. but unfortunately, tonight doesn't. maybe it's because of tiredness. stressness perhaps? speaking of which, i have work later at 8 in the morning. oh man. let's just hope saturday will make my weekend a less dull one. maybe after work i'll go and find the jacket that i want.
and i've been doing a lot of thinking. the next time that i'll be having a girlfriend, i think it'll be in years to come. simply because i don't think i can find myself one. i just suck with the opposite sex la. low in confidence. that has always been a major problem for me. it's always the beginning part of the whole thingy that is the hardest. sometimes you think you're overdoing to impress. sometimes you think you're under-doing just because you're taking it slow. it's hard to stay in the middle. it's near impossible for me to do that. but i'll try.
after what Henny did to me, i am afraid to commit myself into love again. i am afraid of being taken advantage of again. being fooled again. i am afraid of falling again. tripping. it's like a phobia. but i will have to fight it. this heart has been shattered many times before. by a single soul. a heartless one. but i don't think i have the energy to carry myself up again. so i guess i'll just wait down here in vain, waiting for the special one to lift me up. i don't think there will ever be, but let's just wait if my assumptions are purely wrong. maybe the one up there promise me a good fate ahead. i wish.
this is quite a long entry. and i doubt no one reads it. maybe that particular person. and plus one or two. oh well. this is a pathetic blog, and it's owned by a pathetic person. me. yes yes. me. and i am still thinking as to whether i should discard all the stuffs that Henny gave to me, or to savour it as memoirs. but keeping them and looking at them will only hurt this poor heart of mine which has been already hurt a countless of times. i doubt she keeps all the dozens and dozens of stuffs that i bought her. those shirts, wallets, badges, caps, rings, flowers, those poems that i wrote. those songs that i sang to her and record it in a love-shaped cd. those scribbled letters. those roses. argh.. i really need someone to rescue me for i am too weak to even blink an eye. goodnight sugarlips. you're being missed.
breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep
this air is blessed, you share with me
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Saturday, August 20, 2005 @ 01:30 a.m.
dreading thursday.. watching One Tree Hill now on channel 5. reruns. for me. thank god thursday's gone. had a very long day. our performance at just now's semifinals were okay. but i bet other bands were way too good. let's just end that here aite. thanks to this World Battle of The Bands, my level of experience has gone one level up. no more stage frights. and my next aim is, to perform on stage as a guitarist cum vocalist. that has always been something that i've been dying to do since the 1st time i played the guitar. weekends are nearing and im gonna pamper myself with a little bit of shopping i guess. hehz. and it's already Friday baby. i love Fridays. and i can't wait for more Fridays to come. weeee..
and this blog is really pathetic. no one seems to be reading my entries, let alone tag it. not like it used to be, where crazy blog readers would come to my blog everyday and tag and tag and tag that it really had me excited wanting to read what those freaks tagged. but i guess my long hiatus drift them away. but oh well. it doesn't matter. as long as i have a blog that i can update, im more than happy. till then, so long and goodnight.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Friday, August 19, 2005 @ 12:55 a.m.
wishful thinking can anyone please tell me why don't i ever get sick and tired of yellowcard's only one? it has been in my playlist since the 1st day i listened to it and it has always been my favourite song to sing along when i play the guitar.
im going off to work in about a while. sheesh. i lack of sleep. seriously. 2hours of napping isn't that good enough. but nevermind. working midnight is quite relaxing. though there are times that it's really really busy. okay. i shall get myself ready in about 5mins.
these past few days, or rather weeks, has been great. i can't stop myself from smiling. god it feels so wonderful. i thank you for that. i am believing that love is indeed a wonderful gift that only the heart can give, and receive. so here's my heart. from me to you.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Tuesday, August 16, 2005 @ 10:47 p.m.
Pieces it caught me by surprised that my band, formed by a new group of friends managed to squeeze through to the semis of the world battle of the bands. a miracle. or like Ash said. a conspiracy theory. it's something new to me. these past few weeks, i experienced many many new things. new job. a barista in the making. new bus to airport direct from my stop. service 34. new cell. 6230. direct import from Saudi. hehz. new facilitator for my Java module. new people appearing in my life. ohh. how lovely. it's just too lovely. too lovely. too good to be true i guess. a fairytale in the making. haha. school hasn't been great for me. my grades are shitty shitty bang bang. suicidal. so much so of wanting to take up a degree in Mass Comm. i am dreaming. not wanting to make it a reality. oh well. there's always teaching to take up. or better. volunteer myself to be a policeman. ahh. then can catch catch people. screen screen matreps and minahs. go lecture skateboarders like me. damn. i'm turning into an adult soon. Noooo. i don't want! but funny thing is, i can't wait to have my own kids. juniors! wouldn't it be fun watching them grow, knowing that you were once like that? ohh i can't wait. hehz. a house good enough to be a shelter, a car good enough for transportation, a lifetime supply of cash to secure a comfort living, and a bond strong enough to hold the family till the end. all these, i promise you, my beloved wife. whoever she is. wherever she is. whatever she's doing. only the one up above knows.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Saturday, August 13, 2005 @ 01:25 a.m.
no more lifestyle bash.. as for now. i will not attend any party or event organised by those organisers from lifestyle bash anymore. they sucked big time man. money burnt u know. the last 2week's was pathetic. a club with no aircon but instead, fans? what the hell. stuffy. and last night. gotham penthouse rocks man i tell u. the place sure was a heavenly made. nice architectures. and so me and my friends were having a great time dancing. man. i tell u. the dancefloor was freakin packed. sweats. eew. and the big podium. hah. mamasitas gettin wild. candy shop was filling in when the sound system broke! of all songs, it had to be while that song was coming in. damn! and there wasn't any music for don't know how long. and so people left. and the club was so spacious that, after a while, me and my friends were making ourselves comfortable in the VIP area. and i managed to sleep for a while. haha. pathetic sia. the crowd was happening laa. but these bloody organisers like fuck ah. end the party early. okay. next up is, club momo. seyed.. just give me the details man. hope it won't screw up again. big time.
and people. please stop asking me how me and henny are doing, will u? me. her. GAME OVER. i shall not repeat. cause i am tired of doing so. she's not worth my love anymore. she's found herself a new 1 and i am trying to move on. and i think someone out there is helping me in doing so. thank you to you. i shall leave for now. watching the parade. happy 40th birthday singapore. i love you singapore. not.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Tuesday, August 9, 2005 @ 05:17 p.m.
nights are lovely baddaboom baddaboom. ahh. my legs are tired. very. damn it. but hey. today's work was a bit more exciting than last friday. get the hang of doing coffees and espressos and ice blends and teas and bla bla bla. but i am still blur. u know how blurry i can get. and i must say, working in transit is like working in a foreign land. it is so cooool. u either see a white trash. a black ass. or some cina maklap. malays are a rare breed down there. except for working staffs ah. and as usual, i always make a fool out of myself whenever i am new to something. as i was walking towards the bus area, i saw bus 34[new bus ah. stop depan rumah aku seh. dah tak payah naek 53 lagi. tu bridge aku cross tu memang sial ah. penat kan aku jer.] and chased it. i boarded the bus and it stopped at T2. and then i realised, i haven't return the visitor pass, and thus my IC wasn't returned! argh. so have to walk back la to T1. ohh. why i nvr take skytrain? cannot la moron. then if like that, must pass by Burger King seh. mampos la. manager lama aku nampak. oleh kerana aku ni pussy sikit, aku jalan kaki la balek ke T1. and kau tau, seram siakz. ahh. that walkway under the skytrain track was scary man! sheesh. so i reached back T1 and took back my IC lor. then i went home. then then. now i tired ah. and tomorrow night, there's a party at Gotham Penthouse. man! i so can't wait! but i will play my guitar 1st. i'll serenade myself to sleep. =) and its 2 and a half hours plus plus more. u know what im talking about don't u? hah. gd night everyone. and sweet dreamz. and to u too.
Love,
-fr0z-
The Outsider Steps In On Monday, August 8, 2005 @ 01:07 a.m.
after a long hiatus.. ok people. i am back to bloggin. and its only because i am bored and i miss sharing my thoughts with u people. basically, i just miss bloggin laa. till then, later.
The Outsider Steps In On Saturday, August 6, 2005 @ 07:43 p.m.
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fairuz. glamourized to froz. barely legal. 15thApril1986. u do the math. Diploma in IT. Republic Harbor School. resides at Tampines. punk1_rock8_kid2@hotmail.com self proclaimed outsider. plays the drums. hitting the clubs. lamer is his middle name. his dudes. passion for soccer. skateboards at his leisure time. friendster. Smallville freak. O.C resident wannabe. Tree Hill follower. his girlfriend is the only thing that he cares for in this crazy world. Mischa Barton, Samaire Armstrong and Sophia Bush are his eye-candies on TV. a superhero, he's dreaming to be. an outsider, he represents.
